You need to force yourself out of your shell.
I do socialize with the guys at work. I smile, and laugh at jokes, and all that, but it's mostly to be polite rather than getting any joy out of conversation. I can't stand the superficiality of it all sometimes, so the smiles slip right off my face as soon as it's through. I need to connect with human beings on a deeper level than that, or else having "friends" doesn't mean shit.
I do socialize with the guys at work. I smile, and laugh at jokes, and all that, but it's mostly to be polite rather than getting any joy out of conversation. I can't stand the superficiality of it all sometimes, so the smiles slip right off my face as soon as it's through. I need to connect with human beings on a deeper level than that, or else having "friends" doesn't mean shit.
It matters. I have a good social life and I am not a anti-social person at all. I dont hang out with people into metal so I learn about differnt people(though as you all know i am not really a metal fa) but when i reach big groups of people i get scared. I get
nervous and shut dow socially. I dont care if it 30 of my best friends...big group scare me.