I think I'm at the highest point of depression I've ever been in and I have work in one hour.
8 fucking hours of hell!
And my head feels like it's gonna blow.
But...Discouraged Ones is on and I wish I could be locked in a room and listen to this til I die of starvation.
Wow, man, you serious? I hope not, but I remember kinda feeling the same way with my past job in the grocery store (midnight shifts.) In fact, I was so unhappy there I had to leave and find something else.
I'll be lying to myself that this world we live in doesn't disappoint me sometimes (ok, more so than not.) It's just so hard to face sometimes when it seems everybody expects you to be a certain person. And in turn, I sometimes feel I don't know who I am anymore. Even with television, which I can no longer bear, is full of so much garbage where nothing seems real to me. It's like, I feel everyone's pretending in a way - they're not true to themselves (just to let ya know, this is based on the crap you will see on those damn "entertainment" shows in hollywood, etc. You know, how many people dedicate their lives to the stars they worship by buying those stupid tabloids and such). It's so out of hand...and really, who cares?
Now, all this may sound like I'm a depressed person but I think I'm just more spiritual these days.
In the end, the music I cherish so much means EVERYTHING to me. It's something I can totally lose myself in and just escape from everything. Hehe, I agree that this depressive music we all listen to here is something that heals us rather than poisoning us with negativity.
Hehe, hey LifeDepraved - I know what ya mean when you say something like being depressed keeps ya going. Sometimes we need to reflect like this. But, isn't it also true that some can argue what's the point of living if you can't be "happy" all the time? And I know it's not realistic to be happy all the time (life can be hell on earth, I know), but I think it's safe to say that the majority would wish this for themselves.