The Whining and Bitching Thread

My reading speed >>>>>>>>> audible reading speed. Highly inefficient. Plus most of what I read isn't in books, and I don't read much in the way of "popular" books either.
 
Eck, I have terrible eye sight myself and grapple with the fact that I’ll be wearing glasses for the rest of my life. However, I’ve gotten used to glasses though sometimes I do get headaches from them. As bad as my eye sight is, though, i can’t imagine not having it. Losing either (hearing or eyesight) is basically a type of hell I wouldn’t even wish on my worse enemies.

Literally not being able to see well is my biggest insecurity. I see fine with my glasses, but without them? Forget it. If I lose my glasses during some post apocalypse, I’m done for.

@Satanstoenail i feel like I’ve read something about your eyes before. Is it a retina issue that happened? Or did you notice something was off?
 
Trying to get a shiny Makuhita for the fighting-type event in Pokemon Go. I got a shiny Meditite but no Makuhita.

Need it before the 14th cause the odds for a shiny shoot up from 1/400 to 1/4,000.
 
I was thinking more in terms of total loss than gradual/partial.
I think I’d probably be dead within six months if I totally lost either.

Eck, I have terrible eye sight myself and grapple with the fact that I’ll be wearing glasses for the rest of my life. However, I’ve gotten used to glasses though sometimes I do get headaches from them. As bad as my eye sight is, though, i can’t imagine not having it. Losing either (hearing or eyesight) is basically a type of hell I wouldn’t even wish on my worse enemies.

Literally not being able to see well is my biggest insecurity. I see fine with my glasses, but without them? Forget it. If I lose my glasses during some post apocalypse, I’m done for.

@Satanstoenail i feel like I’ve read something about your eyes before. Is it a retina issue that happened? Or did you notice something was off?
It’s a cataract. I first noticed that I was relying more on my left eye when reading and my eyes weren’t working ‘in stereo’ as well. Got prescribed glasses that didn’t work, went back a year later and diagnosed with a cataract.
 
If I had to pick between losing my hearing or eyesight I'd pick eyesight every time tbh. What about all yall
 
Damn that's morbid. Guess I'm just more cantankerous? Although losing my sight completely would give pause.......
I think I’m just being realistic, I imagine I’d fall into the deepest depression ever and turn to whatever substances I could get my hands on to numb the reality of my situation until my body inevitably gave up.
 
I have basically zero percent job satisfaction right now. I get paid a shit ton of money to essentially sit around and do nothing (honestly someone in the world's dream job tbh). I guess because my job is more project based, it isn't unexpected to have lulls in activity but I swear the last 6 months I've had to start asking people if they need help with things because of the lack of work to do or the degree of ease at which I can complete work. I have to ask to be assigned to projects so I don't feel like a fucking freeloader just browsing Wikipedia or shitposting here. I don't feel challenged or enriched at all. Rumor mill says that at some point I'm going to be pushed into a developer (programmer) role but I'm not really optimistic about it. I don't see any of the developers retiring anytime soon and the youngest developer is 50 or so years old. We have a sizable project about to start soon so I'm sure I'll be really busy with that until it's over but even then I don't feel challenged. I know I'm somewhat proficient at my job because I find system defects all the time that need to be fixed but I never feel like I'm pulling my own weight at all. I am the third most knowledgeable person about this administration system in a company of 1,000+ people so I have job security/knowledge power and could feasibly stay in this role for a long time but this isn't what I want to do for even 5 more years.

I've thought about:
  • going back to school
  • making a complete career change and learning a trade of some kind (which would involve #1)
  • joining the military (I have one more year to join the Army and until I'm 39 to join the USAF so I have some time to make a decision on this but not much time. I would also have to drop 40 more pounds based on my height but I could probably get a waiver if I drop half that)
  • finding a job at a different company (although I hate interviews enough so shy away from this right now)
  • transferring to a different department in the company (although I imagine once I learn how to do THAT job, I will become bored again)
At least when I worked in a call center, I didn't have time to be bored. I'm just not sure what to do. I am satisfied about everything else in my life other than this (and the fact that I want to get married and have kids because the urge to have kids intensifies as I get older but I can't control that at all unfortunately) and has me really feeling down lately. I don't look forward to going to work at all anymore. I don't dread going to work either, but it's just a constant state of complacency because of the work environment and political environment within work.

All that money for schooling to be bitching about a job I don't like. Fuck this.
 
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I'm in a similar situation as you, except I'm still satisfied with ~30% of the job, and there's plenty of help needed around the company if I care to reach out for more to do.

That and I have zero desire to have kids. Fuck that bullshit :lol:

I'm convinced there's nothing else I'd rather do that pays at least half what I'm making now. It sucks, but having an easy job that pays well is a far better lot in life than most people have, and I'm always reminding myself to be grateful for that.
 
This is a weird thing to bitch about, but I get scared of the dark almost every night now at my apartment, when I go to bed. Specifically, scared that I might see a ghost. It's something I've struggled with ever since I started living alone eight years ago, but it got much worse this year after I watched Crimson Peak and a few episodes of Ghost Adventures. I've absolutely sworn off ghost movies/shows now.

I've never seen a ghost in my life, and I don't believe in anything supernatural. It's amazing how powerful a fear can be, even when I know it's a completely irrational one.
 
I have basically zero percent job satisfaction right now. I get paid a shit ton of money to essentially sit around and do nothing (honestly someone in the world's dream job tbh). I guess because my job is more project based, it isn't unexpected to have lulls in activity but I swear the last 6 months I've had to start asking people if they need help with things because of the lack of work to do or the degree of ease at which I can complete work. I have to ask to be assigned to projects so I don't feel like a fucking freeloader just browsing Wikipedia or shitposting here. I don't feel challenged or enriched at all. Rumor mill says that at some point I'm going to be pushed into a developer (programmer) role but I'm not really optimistic about it. I don't see any of the developers retiring anytime soon and the youngest developer is 50 or so years old. We have a sizable project about to start soon so I'm sure I'll be really busy with that until it's over but even then I don't feel challenged. I know I'm somewhat proficient at my job because I find system defects all the time that need to be fixed but I never feel like I'm pulling my own weight at all. I am the third most knowledgeable person about this administration system in a company of 1,000+ people so I have job security/knowledge power and could feasibly stay in this role for a long time but this isn't what I want to do for even 5 more years.

I've thought about:
  • going back to school
  • making a complete career change and learning a trade of some kind (which would involve #1)
  • joining the military (I have one more year to join the Army and until I'm 39 to join the USAF so I have some time to make a decision on this but not much time. I would also have to drop 40 more pounds based on my height but I could probably get a waiver if I drop half that)
  • finding a job at a different company (although I hate interviews enough so shy away from this right now)
  • transferring to a different department in the company (although I imagine once I learn how to do THAT job, I will become bored again)
At least when I worked in a call center, I didn't have time to be bored. I'm just not sure what to do. I am satisfied about everything else in my life other than this (and the fact that I want to get married and have kids because the urge to have kids intensifies as I get older but I can't control that at all unfortunately) and has me really feeling down lately. I don't look forward to going to work at all anymore. I don't dread going to work either, but it's just a constant state of complacency because of the work environment and political environment within work.

All that money for schooling to be bitching about a job I don't like. Fuck this.

Hey, you could go back to school and get that degree in gender studies you've always wanted ;)

If you're really unhappy there and you want to go with one of those five options, your best bet might just be to try out a different company. You'll eventually run into the same problem you mention with fifth problem, but you'll eventually run into that problem with any of the options listed. Sometimes just a change of environment and work crew can make all the difference. I would however echo Grant before recommending any major changes.

Your military option struck my eye though. I've found myself mulling over the military option (specifically the officer route) a couple of times over the last 5 or so years. Typically when it crossed my mind, I was in a rather alienated position with occupational circumstances and I also tended to isolate myself from people in my free time (in part because I barely had any). I was pretty unhappy and I think my view on it was something of an organized, secure way of running away. Remaining on the path I was on just seemed too slow and I couldn't bear it. Obviously I didn't go through with it, and I'm glad that I didn't because my motivation for doing so was misplaced. The military is a good place to run away to when you don't have other options; you're making quite a sacrifice when you do have other options, and you could wind up being locked in for a few years and feeling like you're wasting your time the whole way through without any guaranteed benefits at the end except a waiting list at the VA. Of course, my experience is probably totally different than yours, but I just wanted to throw mine out there. I'm sure our military guys here have some commentary on that.

This is a bit more personal of a question, but how's your social life? A good social life makes situations like yours much more tolerable. I don't like teaching very much and the hourly demands of my job here are next to nothing, so I was pretty miserable until I found a solid group of friends here a couple months back.
 
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This is a bit more personal of a question, but how's your social life?

I guess it's relative. I've never been a social butterfly but I'm finally aligning myself with people I can trust and really good friendships with a small group of people. Socialization is a very important and necessary part of life so I understand I can't just barricade myself in my house all the time. Ever since I quit drinking my perspectives on things have changed. My friend and his wife had a cookout last night and I opted not to go even after another friend was goading me to come mainly because I was tired from my class. I usually make those gatherings and I figure I have the option to not to go one since i try to attend 80% of them.

I've found with my work emvironment, the people I used to hang out with can no longer be trusted for several reasons. As a result, I really only hang out with one person from work but she has essentially become my best work friend and female friend. She is also in recovery and we have grown closer as we have journeyed through sobriety together.

Not sure if I answered your question. Do I socialize outside of work? Yes. Do I have a social life? Your perspective dictates that.