The Whining and Bitching Thread

On another note
Depression fucking sucks. Im ready to turn it into some Terasophe music but I need to find the time.
Sleep paralysis is becoming more and more common with me here lately and I wish it would either go or kill me already.
 
On another note
Depression fucking sucks. Im ready to turn it into some Terasophe music but I need to find the time.
Sleep paralysis is becoming more and more common with me here lately and I wish it would either go or kill me already.

You on meds? My wife is forever entangled with depression but meds are cheap enough. A month supply of pills is like $9 here.

I’m curious with sleep paralysis, if you sleep on your stomach, can it even happen?
 
How the fuck did you guys survive being unemployed for so long?

1) Split mortgage w/ my brother/roommate.

2) Lived cheap before I was unemployed =solid savings. I still drive my 16 year old Ford Ranger, don't go out to movies, etc. It's easy enough as a homebody who doesn't piss money away trying to impress people on Facebook :p
 
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I’m a bit nervous after talking to my doctor yesterday. I’ve been having a lot of sleep issues and I’m having horrific problems staying awake working/driving. Basically, if I’m still, I’m falling asleep. Arms and legs feel numb. I finally decided to talk to him because I’ve had three accidents in the last two years. I’ve been lucky so far only hurting my car and insurance premium.

I’m abusing the fuck out of energy drinks and cigars to stay awake driving at work. I drive a truck that weighs 19,500 pounds. I’m not sure I could live with myself if I fall asleep driving one on the highway and annihilate someone’s family or something.

He gave me a test to see if I qualified for a sleep study, I scored a fucking 23 out of 30 when all I needed to qualify was a 10. Test date is TBA.

I dread the thought of needed a CPAP machine (suspects apnea or narcolepsy and I’ve had people tell me my whole life I have apnea) every night for the rest of my life and I almost think I’m willing to live with the chance of dying in my bed instead of that.

To keep me in the world of the conscious he gave me a prescription of Provigil and I have to admit while I was skeptical of it, so far it really works. I had never heard of it before he gave it to me but I made it clear I couldn’t legally work on Adderall this was his suggestion. Colors appear very bright and images very sharp. You feel very awake, a little dry. Extremely alert and I feel myself talking way more than normal but when I’m around people I CANT SHUT THE FUCK UP, makes me wonder if this is what consciousness is instead of what I was experiencing before. Lol. The pill lasts 12 hours in my experience. If someone had told me this exists I would have told them they were a fucking liar.