Sophii
lil' rat
honestly
i actually realized it's not the meth that's fucking up my memory
part of it is a compartmentalizing problem
instead of remembering the names of the girls that i've had sex with
i remember the names of the girls that peter benjamin parker has had sex with
instead of remembering how to make a bomb out of a kerosene-powered lamp
i remember that "uncopywritable" is the longest word in the english language that doesn't repeat a letter
i get lost every time i go into a store because instead of memorizing the layout of stores that still exist
my memory is full of the layouts of stores that don't actually exist anymore
also
i haven't actually done as much meth as everyone thinks i have
i did it for the first time when i was 12
but it was really just a Halloween-Christmas-4th-of-July kind of a thing until just a couple years ago
in fact, in the "crutchraped" video, i'm actually high-as-a-kite on downers
also
everyone genetically related to me has inheritable memory problems and i'm pretty sure i inherited one of those
so
@Terasophe
really my memory would be fucked off even if i hadn't done any meth in my life
and that sentence is kinda freaking me out
so, fuck being sober, i'm gonna go get high
You do you, blurry. I'm not your parent.