ok, where to start...
i cant really define how i feel after listening to this.
at first, it felt quite lethargic, slow and beautiful, almost like a dream unfolding infront of
you, but not actually being able to see what was happening. the mood shifted quickly and became
quite melancholy and sad, i felt a few tears welling up at one point.after this it became much
heavier, much darker and much more of an experience than a cause of feelings. it surpassed emotion
or feeling and tapped into something far more primal, something i had never seen before. it was
like i had my fears from my childhood placed infront of me, i started to remember nightmares i
had long forgotten. it was disturbing and terrifying, i could actually feel how i used to feel
when i experienced the nightmares i used to have. it felt like i was out of control, i felt
vulnerable and lost. i was scared and lonely, but not in a way i could describe. but when i
tried to remember what it was that i feared, i couldnt remeber. it was like i had hidden the
cause of the fear but i could still feel it there, something so dark i didnt want to remember
it. after this things became strange again, and fear turned to sadness, yet the loneliness stuck
with me. i cried, no, i wept for all the people i had lost and for how much i had changed over
the last few years. i remembered people i hadnt thought of in years, i remembered everything i
had forgotten or had made myself forget. i cried for all those people i had mistreated and let
down. but then my feelings changed again, i became aware of who i am, and that i am a product of
who i was. we are one in the same and i can be who i want to be. i know this is all sounding very
silly, but i cant really describe how i felt in any other way...i came to accept everything i had
just thought of and everything i had just remembered, like it was a part of me whether or not i
wanted it to be. its almost as if this piece of music (or whatever you want to call it) exposed
who i was; my hopes, my fears, my hate and my love. it truly showed me what it was to be me and
showed me how to accept myself for i am. it was almost a spiritual feeling, something i couldnt
control but at the same time i was the one who was causing it. this truly is more than a musical
experience, this will truly expose who you are, who you believe yourself to be. i dont even know
if this is possible, but it has happened, and i am amazed at the power of music.
