See, to me when you get to the point of suicide, its empowering. You realize that you have complete fucking control over your life. No one makes you do anything you dont want to, and no one has control over you. In the end, you have only one person to answer to, yourself. People can make your life shit-tacular to be sure, but only if you let them. People conform to societies rules out of fear. IMO if you get to that point, do something. If you have nothing to live for, join the military. At least that way you will get paid to blow shit up and try to kill people. And what the hell, if you get waxed in the process, no big deal, you have nothing to live for anyways.