Einherjar86
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Looks like I'm going to Buffalo next month. The abstract for my conference paper was accepted!
Only problem now is that now I'm freaking out and my anxiety is skyrocketing over it.
Are you presenting at SUNY Buffalo?
Looks like I'm going to Buffalo next month. The abstract for my conference paper was accepted!
Only problem now is that now I'm freaking out and my anxiety is skyrocketing over it.
what happened to your Klonopin pills??
Are you presenting at SUNY Buffalo?
They dumb me down and make me feel depressed. It's like using chemotherapy to kill a cancer, only the cancer is anxiety, apparently.
I think you guys are still seeing this whole issue as emotional and something I can just man up and deal with. Trust me I do that every day. I want to travel and do so much. The problem is my brain is not functioning the way it used to, and that's existentially terrifying every day I'm sitting in class or in front of computer trying to do the things that used to be so enjoyable, but are now frustrating.
Going through this gauntlet of different drug regimens has made me unstable and paranoid, but now I'm off everything but the ADHD meds, though I'm not sure how much they're helping or hurting. I haven't been sleeping well because anxiety has been fucking up my brain that much.
Sorry I come across as whiny but I post here to get lay opinions for things I tend not to think critically about, since I've never been through shit like this before.
being thrown into a new program in which I am now lowest on the totem pole has been a major blow to an ego delusively nurtured by three years of being the flower of the Maine's public education system.
They dumb me down and make me feel depressed. It's like using chemotherapy to kill a cancer, only the cancer is anxiety, apparently.
Yeah, it may just be a matter of getting over the initial shock and making some friends/contacts at Iowa that give you a sense of belonging there.It would normally be situational if it didn't occur within the context of the past month or so of me overreacting to some temporary maladjustment by trying to throw chemicals at my romantically high expectations of myself, failing to attain which has triggered a mental crisis of sorts. I don't give myself enough credit for what I achieve, and being thrown into a new program in which I am now lowest on the totem pole has been a major blow to an ego delusively nurtured by three years of being the flower of the Maine's public education system.
I sincerely hope that's the case. I'm signing up for a group therapy program nonetheless (can't hurt), which involves meditation and provides a structure for cultivating healthier habits toward better psychological and thus, one would think, cognitive well-being.
Been interested in meditation for a while anyway. Cody I'm sure could attest to its benefits.
I quit my job and got another in like an hour. Hell yeah. I hated my old job so much.