My girlfriend is a sufferer of severe emotional trauma, so the relationship is very difficult. Obviously you guys don't hear about the good parts because when we're having fun we're too busy having fun and doing stuff for me to post about it.
She just keeps pushing me away and I know it's just a defense mechanism to deal with her distress, but it's hurtful to me.
Example: All weekend we've been discussing what we're gonna do when we hang out tomorrow. We were talking about it fine and we were pretty psyched. Then about 10 minutes later, out of
nowhere, she texted me something like "i'm not coming tomorrow. i'm really unhappy." Now I know this probably isn't true, it is likely just a manifestation of her current state of mind and it'll blow over, because it usually does (yes this kind of thing happens fairly often; welcome to my world); in the morning she will probably apologize and feel really bad for what she'd said, and she'll come over and it'll be fine. But there is clearly a deeper problem, and she's already in therapy and everything and supposedly I help too, but it's hard to take the person telling me I help seriously when 5 seconds afterwards she could be telling me she is completely unhappy and hates herself.
It sucks. And I'm not giving up on her. I know I sound stubborn, but she deserves someone like me. Her entire life she's never been able to trust anyone, and I know she trusts me and loves me, but sometimes she hurts me pretty goddamned bad and I can't just brush it off because I spend 100% of my time showing her that I care and love her and to have it all deconstructed in an instant by something she probably doesn't even mean...well, it's not fun.
