I am bitching because I feel like currently, there's no real purpose to my life at all. I feel the worst I've ever felt in my entire life.
I can't seem to get a job no matter how hard I try. I apply at tons of places throughout this wretched shithole of a town, pretty much every place I can think of, and the closest I've gotten is a rejection letter from a Zellers. I would apply at places in different towns but I don't own a car... it's sorta part of the reason why I need a job in the first place.
Not only that, but I am 20 years old and I am watching all of my friends, aside from my one closest bud, go to college without me. I want to go to college for graphic design, but I'm not comfortable with going $5-6000 into debt, having never even owned that amount of money at one time before. That's another reason I was sorta hoping for this job. I wanted to at least be able to pay for half of it upfront, y'know?
Having to sit in this one shithole of a town (Smiths Falls), not being able to hang out with any of my buds, not being able to advance in my life, not currently being able to live the college life, is one of the worst feelings in the world. I mean, my girlfriend makes me happy too but without the friends its just a really hollow, depressing feeling.
I feel like everybody else is advancing in life but I'm stuck in this hole, and it feels horrible. I'm going fucking batshit insane being stuck in this town. BATSHIT FUCKING INSANE.