SentinelSlain
Suck my joined date.
- Nov 21, 2007
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Urgh. I think I need to speak to some kind of professional, like a psychologist or something. I don't want to get sectioned though. I am not a happy person.
Urgh. I think I need to speak to some kind of professional, like a psychologist or something. I don't want to get sectioned though. I am not a happy person.
zabu of nΩd;10393782 said:Why are 90% of the girls in this area obsessed with marriage and children? Is this a hormonal thing or a cultural thing?
I want to get as far away as possible from a social climate with that in it.
zabu of nΩd;10393782 said:Why are 90% of the girls in this area obsessed with marriage and children? Is this a hormonal thing or a cultural thing?
I want to get as far away as possible from a social climate with that in it.
Okay, wall of text time because I'm sick of thinking about shit like this every high. Just gotta get it all out and enjoy the rest of this high.
This one girl I work with is fun to hang out with, but I think she just pretends to like me, also I have barely anything to say to her and I am so bad at conversation that I can't even make up anything to say. I should learn. But also, hanging out with her is only awesome when we're having conversations about positive stuff that isn't serious, and I'm incapable of that with her unless we're baked. But she asks questions out of the blue like "do you ever want to get married," and has kinda pried out of me shit I don't want to tell people through incessant "tell me"'s, pouting a little, and getting her eyes all watery. Even when I'm baked, this shit kills my ability to talk to her. I get bored as hell without people to hang out with, and I need some entertainment. She's entertaining without annoying stuff attached. This other chick I'd hang out with got a little more tedious than entertaining. I act nice and generous, generally, but I get tired of smoking up people that become more cost than reward to chill with. This girl I was initially talking about, let's call her A, is smart, which does help. I would like to be able to hang out with her on a regular basis for entertainment purposes, but I think I'd have to find a way to hold greater social value to her. I don't know much about her, except personal things she decided to blurt out to me. She exhibits behaviors that could be interpreted as (although I don't think they are) hints for some kind of level of value in me higher than that of a friend. She asked me if I ever wanted to get married, and her reaction could be interpreted as anger, disappointment, surprise, or concern, or perhaps some kind of mixture of those with some varying amount of values. Then she told me I should fall in love. And when I told her about this little phobia I have of any girl I date opening up too much, too soon, she said "you can't stay closed forever." Regardless, my interpretation holds that it's just her trying to help me because she thinks I have issues. I had little negative bouts that I stupidly decided to talk to her about because things got weird with my closest friend who I usually talk to about this shit. Anyways, that's over, and conversations are very vapid. She occasionally compliments me, but I'm sure it's just some finishing touches on what she might believe to be having helped me. Who the hell knows? Maybe I'll ask her. It might be more entertaining than eating a sandwich and a gingerbread man.
zabu of nΩd;10393782 said:Why are 90% of the girls in this area obsessed with marriage and children? Is this a hormonal thing or a cultural thing?
I want to get as far away as possible from a social climate with that in it.
I hate the internet.
I'm running out of endless sources of information to browse. I must find new ways to waste time.