Because I have spent the last year of my life with her. its hard to just not have someone who was such a big part of your life for a long period of time to be gone completely from your life
edit: Zeph I'm not a virgin. and whether a person is a virgin or not has nothing to do with how much they know about relationships. maybe someone chose abstinence. or is with a partner who doesnt want sex atm or until marriage? or just never pursued the physical part of a relationship yet. people can have good advice about relationships and be a virgin.