I'm not a suicidal depressed person, but I don't want to live in this society, and have the money not to, and don't like people and have the money to live in bum fuck egypt, but no one will move me there even though can pay my rent i did not have a gun and tried to kill myself by slitting my own throat, i took a pocket knife and slit my throat and stabbed my neck with a kitchen knife, it might seem stupid, but i thought at the time would kill me,just because people and society is shitty does not mean I want to expierience it,i don't want to deal with people because they're shit,i dont care if they are, i don't really want to get into it, the shit i've dealt with would not normally have to deal with it, and i'm fuckin sick of it for along time, if I had a gun would shoot myself in the head, i asked someone to drop a gun off and the person would not even do it, even though no one would know how i got it, i don't think sometimes can hang myself from a belt.
