Recently I've been thinking about the point of depressive black metal. I used to be into that genre a little bit a couple of years ago, mainly through the Swedish Shining which I used to worship, but nowadays I'm more inclined to think that this iteration of black metal is pretty pointless. Yesterday I stumbled upon a few songs by Xasthur, and even though I found myself enjoying the riffs and the general atmosphere of the songs, I couldn't enjoy them fully. There is something within me that simply does not feel that kind of music anymore. It's not something I could listen to on a daily basis, and it has been like that for a few years. The repetitive vocals exuding suffering, the oppressive atmosphere and overall depression reign mood in a 12-minute-long song is not something I'm looking for these days.
I've also observed that this kind of music does not affect my mood anymore, or at least it does not influence it to such an extent as it did in the past. A couple of years ago I used to be a pretty depressed and misanthropic individual, but my view on life and general demeanour have changed significantly. I don't feel the need to dampen my spirits and dishearten myself anymore. It's not the way I am, nor is it the way I feel I should be. And if that is the case, I just don't have the urge to listen to depressive black metal anymore. Of course, I love some passages or even tracks rife with sad riffs evocative of personal struggles and impediments, just the doom metal way, but when you have an entire discography of depression and suicide-filled themes and lyrics, it just doesn't float my boat. It's not my realm, to put it bluntly. I'd rather be listening to some Bathory or even Burzum instead. I find no real-life value in dsbm; its misanthropic and suicide-related messages I find repugnant and even somewhat detrimental because of the sheer, deliberate negativity and the lack of life-affirming substance this music entails. I may sound overly dramatic, but I just felt an urge to share my thoughts on this topic since I used to be exceedingly "enthusiastic" about this stuff myself, and I feel it did no good to me apart from making me delve deeper into the unconscious areas of my psyche.
So, to conclude, my question is: do any of you actually listen to dsbm pretty regularly? What do you think of this subgenre? Do you think people without underlying mental issues or ongoing life difficulties actually listen - or could feel inclined to listen - to this kind of music?