Ambivalent: Sara's pulled one over on me again. Deleted me from Facebook, refusing to maintain contact, and - for a second time - going out of her way to bully me into submission. Both directly and indirectly.
The ambivalence comes from the fact that, in reality, I've had a lot of my friends (including you lot here) supporting me through everything over the past year, and... well, I'm kind of starting to lean towards the path of no fucks given. I love my kids, but the fact that Sara and her family are actively going out of their way to ensure that it's impossible for me to have a comfortable relationship with them the way I should do has kind of left me thinking "Well, it's obvious that they're not going to change. May as well take my shit and leave while I still have breath in my body". It's fucking hard, and it's unfair on the kids that I've been forced into it, but I've really been left with no other choice... and provided Sara doesn't make matters worse by fucking me over even worse in the future, I'll still get to see 'em as often as possible.
If it's gotten so bad that I'm having to go to counseling as a last-ditch attempt to save what remains of my mental well-being, then I'm in a situation that I need to get myself out of immediately. No matter how painful it is. So yeah, thanks for the kind words, gents. I don't say that often enough.
