This is something I'd end up posting in the Love/Hate thread but I can't because I don't hate this... And in some ways I don't love it.
So... I'm finishing college in the week. It's much harder for me that it sounds... I sent an email to my friends... my tutor... my inspiration in life just then... And I've broke down. I sent an email to him... I know he can;t read this in person but I;m sure up there he'd be checking his Facebook and his emails haha
It's hard... I;m gonna be saying bye to my mates who are alive... But in a way I've said bye to my friends who chose to leave.. But I'm gonna be saying bye again. Because of where most of my memories with him were. Right now I'm just in tears... But it's not bad. It's just cos I miss Tom. It's been a month and a bit since he went now and it feels like yesterday that he just walked into a room and shouted "PRICK!" at me or he had a big long motivational chat and let me know I'm gonna do well.. That I should try and that I am important. That guy meant everything to me and now I'm going off what he's told me... And the worlds that guy has given me are enough to last me a life time. An experience like this has made me value all of my friends and experiences in life so much more and has made me want to do well for myself.
I really do class you guys as mates. And it's fun to come on here and to catch up/piss you guys off/piss about because it might just be a very small part of what's going on with my life... But I really value everything in life.
I'd change nothing in my life... It's perfect. Although I only wish I could speak to Tom just one more time... Let him know what's going on in life... Know how he's doing. I'm not religious... But I really do believe He's in a good place and we'll all be there together one day.
So... I'm finishing college in the week. It's much harder for me that it sounds... I sent an email to my friends... my tutor... my inspiration in life just then... And I've broke down. I sent an email to him... I know he can;t read this in person but I;m sure up there he'd be checking his Facebook and his emails haha
It's hard... I;m gonna be saying bye to my mates who are alive... But in a way I've said bye to my friends who chose to leave.. But I'm gonna be saying bye again. Because of where most of my memories with him were. Right now I'm just in tears... But it's not bad. It's just cos I miss Tom. It's been a month and a bit since he went now and it feels like yesterday that he just walked into a room and shouted "PRICK!" at me or he had a big long motivational chat and let me know I'm gonna do well.. That I should try and that I am important. That guy meant everything to me and now I'm going off what he's told me... And the worlds that guy has given me are enough to last me a life time. An experience like this has made me value all of my friends and experiences in life so much more and has made me want to do well for myself.
I really do class you guys as mates. And it's fun to come on here and to catch up/piss you guys off/piss about because it might just be a very small part of what's going on with my life... But I really value everything in life.
I'd change nothing in my life... It's perfect. Although I only wish I could speak to Tom just one more time... Let him know what's going on in life... Know how he's doing. I'm not religious... But I really do believe He's in a good place and we'll all be there together one day.
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