hey guys. i have, well, heh....a girl problem. shit ya i know i was kinda taking a chance cos i was talking with darg and he said how we're like all one big family on here so im really looking for some help. but please, unless you know it for a fact, dont give me the "your young, things will sort themselves out" answer.
alright. ill start with telling you about ellie. she's a fuckin wonderful girl. she mean's so much to me, and i'd give nearly anything for her, as well as do anything for her. she's such an amazing person and i just love being around her, its a great feeling. honestly, i dont think ill ever meet such a special girl again in this lifetime, or any that follow. when im around her, i get this feeling alot like my stomach is completely emtpy except for something very small in the center thats very hyper and try to burst but cant, its somewhat hard to explain. i love her to the point, and this is big, im sure you can relate, id give up music to be with her. i even say my batteries ran out on my CD player as an excuse to stop listening and talk with her. i wish hold her forever and ever. anyway she likes this one guy rob, who a completely dick and treats her like shit. infact, all the guys she flirts with like crazy are fuckin mean biches. she even says how mean they are and that she hates them, but still they are the ones she flirts with over-the-top....and one of them she still likes. and it sucks cos i hate seeing her being treated with such disrespect and so awfully, especially knowing how much better i could be for her, and how much id be willing to do for her. we are great friends, but she doesn't treat me any different than those dirty horny bastards who think nothing else of her but her ass....which is fuckin stupid. yes she is beautiful, but thats not the reason i have such strong feelings for her. however all them are so god damn mean and just want to get her to do something with them, and i cant fuckin take that. i love how she isn't afraid to be herself, no matter how much shit she gets she's still herself, and herself is amazing. i also love how no matter how much of a shit sandwhich shes in at the moment, if im having a bad day she can find a way in herself to make me feel better. i love how nice she is, honestly, she is just so fuckin nice its incredible. i love how funny she is too, she makes me laugh all the time. sometimes its stupid things she does or says, but either way she's so funny and i love it. althought even if she wasn't that funny, just being in her pressence makes me smile. and it bugs me so much that no matter how much affection i give her, and so matter caring i am, she treats me not much different than those assholes. its not like i want to force her to feel this way about me, i just feel she doesnt realize or know how much she means to me... its just- ah guys i dont know. i just dont know what to do. i dont know how im supposed to go about doing things. i mean, if she really likes those assholes sure im protective of her, the last thing i want is for her to be hurt in any way; but i do whatever i can to make her happy. if letting her do or doing something for her makes her happy, than ill do it...even if it makes me sad. i just, i need some help, advice, support....anything. i look up to the people on here, (the ones that post alot and im familiar with) alot. i just needed to get all this out to people i trust and feel comfortable sharing it with. thanks everyone.
alright. ill start with telling you about ellie. she's a fuckin wonderful girl. she mean's so much to me, and i'd give nearly anything for her, as well as do anything for her. she's such an amazing person and i just love being around her, its a great feeling. honestly, i dont think ill ever meet such a special girl again in this lifetime, or any that follow. when im around her, i get this feeling alot like my stomach is completely emtpy except for something very small in the center thats very hyper and try to burst but cant, its somewhat hard to explain. i love her to the point, and this is big, im sure you can relate, id give up music to be with her. i even say my batteries ran out on my CD player as an excuse to stop listening and talk with her. i wish hold her forever and ever. anyway she likes this one guy rob, who a completely dick and treats her like shit. infact, all the guys she flirts with like crazy are fuckin mean biches. she even says how mean they are and that she hates them, but still they are the ones she flirts with over-the-top....and one of them she still likes. and it sucks cos i hate seeing her being treated with such disrespect and so awfully, especially knowing how much better i could be for her, and how much id be willing to do for her. we are great friends, but she doesn't treat me any different than those dirty horny bastards who think nothing else of her but her ass....which is fuckin stupid. yes she is beautiful, but thats not the reason i have such strong feelings for her. however all them are so god damn mean and just want to get her to do something with them, and i cant fuckin take that. i love how she isn't afraid to be herself, no matter how much shit she gets she's still herself, and herself is amazing. i also love how no matter how much of a shit sandwhich shes in at the moment, if im having a bad day she can find a way in herself to make me feel better. i love how nice she is, honestly, she is just so fuckin nice its incredible. i love how funny she is too, she makes me laugh all the time. sometimes its stupid things she does or says, but either way she's so funny and i love it. althought even if she wasn't that funny, just being in her pressence makes me smile. and it bugs me so much that no matter how much affection i give her, and so matter caring i am, she treats me not much different than those assholes. its not like i want to force her to feel this way about me, i just feel she doesnt realize or know how much she means to me... its just- ah guys i dont know. i just dont know what to do. i dont know how im supposed to go about doing things. i mean, if she really likes those assholes sure im protective of her, the last thing i want is for her to be hurt in any way; but i do whatever i can to make her happy. if letting her do or doing something for her makes her happy, than ill do it...even if it makes me sad. i just, i need some help, advice, support....anything. i look up to the people on here, (the ones that post alot and im familiar with) alot. i just needed to get all this out to people i trust and feel comfortable sharing it with. thanks everyone.
Whatever happens, enjoy the time you do spend with her and try not to worry too much about the other stuff. Good luck.
