Not-so-good-and-old "How do you feel" thread

[lumitalvi]

NF: panic. Only about 3 weeks before my life ends.
ÄÄÄÄ ÄÄÄ ÄÄÄÄ !!!! AAA AAA AAAA AAAA!!!!! FUCKFUCKFUCK.
(test to get in to uni this is)
And I have to talk with Rusty about Provinssi. So I´ll contact him soon.
Muahaha..

Gah.. I´m going to die.

 

[rahvin]

the speed of mutation is always appalling: i was tempted to feel rather good last night, and got reminded of a number of bad sides in life this very morning (among whose hay fever is but one). while i admit this is going to sound childish, it almost makes you want to shun the positive feelings due to all their catches.

someone tried to either get inside the building (my library) or simply wreak havoc last night: a window close to my office was smashed with a big stone, but then for some reason the criminals didn't get in. the funny thing is that this place is supposed to be alarmed 24/7, and that the stone and access to the area where the perpetrators have been doing their happy boulder-tossing were both on the other side of an equally alarmed gate. i should probably bring my weapons to work, instead of the digital camera that i brought today in the sudden desire to take some pictures of my surroundings (yes, that was when i was still tempted to feel good).

 

[Rusty]

Wow Rusty, you were going to fly all the way to cleveland, ohio to see katatonia?

Haha. Not quite... just several hundred miles the other direction.

And I have to talk with Rusty about Provinssi. So I´ll contact him soon.

Tell me you're coming!!

NF: Tired, I think I'll go for a quick kip in a minute. Otherwise distinctly average at best.

 

[Ethereal Sage]

NF: More relaxed/uncaring with every mouthful.

 

[rahvin]

nf: filled to the brim with antihistamines, i'm standing up against hay fever, but collapsing from tiredness. my usual lack of sleep, plus some recent inclination to letting go a bit, plus the medication, is just too devastating a cocktail and i'm one small step from curling up in my office chair and falling asleep.

 

[Onyx]

NF: Hungry as Hell
Internet is something that doesn't want to let me go

 

[Caelestia]

nf: ECSTATIC!! it's friday!!! :hotjump: :hotjump:

 

[Child of Time]

Magsec: Congratulations! Feels good I guess. "Only" one year left then.

Now that a few days posts are gone, it feels like I've only dreamed those days. And that feels weird.

I think I wrote a fairly long post that got lost, but it was mostly craptalking as usual. The only thing worth repeating was that I didn't got the lowest mark on the math test I had last tuesday, which was surprising and relieving.

 

[Human Desert]

nf: Uh oh i feel like crying..

 

[Tranquillian]

/me hugs idari

/me is a little unsober, feeling very well.

 

[Rusty]

NF: Better than earlier thanks to beer and a dear friend, but still not brilliant.

 

[Tranquillian]

Hope things get better Rusty.

 

[hyena]

nf: i met a friend's friend on monday night and we had a pleasant (although slightly difficult at some points) conversation and chinese dinner, end of the story. since he's a bit off kilter at this point in his life, i said something to the effect of: if you feel like going out, possibly if you feel like meeting my friends, give me a call anytime, but i won't disturb you. this morning i got an email thanking me for monday night. whatever i deserved thanks for, especially after one week, is a huge mystery to me, i didn't do anything noteworthy, hence i'm not worthy the email also said stuff like sorry for not calling you earlier. like i ever get emails from people apologizing for silences that last waaaay more than one week. and, to top it, if you want to go out again next week i'm willing to. i proposed going for a walk in a huge park close to where i live on sunday afternoon and maybe then going for dinner, if he doesn't have anything to do. not that this is unusual per se - i normally go out with friends at weekends - but i was thrown a bit off balance by the politeness and sheer care in the email. it's something that i give instead of receiving, usually. i'm seriously tempted to state something along the lines of life could be that simple, especially because it must be the first time in years that i meet someone new without feeling somehow in a trench, but i won't, because no matter how cool these small things don't solve life's big dilemmas. oh well.

 

[Tebus]

@hyena: Very interesting indeed. It seems that was a good thing to have happened.

nf: It looks like I'm diving head first into hoping for a relationship to happen again, and I'm really getting tired of it. The story is, in an e-mail where I was in the process of saying what nights I was free to hang out next week, I told her the only night I'm not free is Tuesday since I'll be at a concert (Ill Nino and Flaw.) Now she is the kind of person that I would never suspect to want to go to a concert of that type, and what does she ask, but "can I come?" Now first of all when I go to these concerts, it's a release of some sort, I just let go of everything pent up, and I feel great afterwords. But because I can't let go of these damn feelings, now it's going to be extra challenging for me to ward them off and act the way I usually do a concert. I'm going to be so tempted to not act weird. I'm glad she wants to go, but I'm so tired of letting these things get to me. It seems like I should be able to suppress these feelings, and I want to just be friends with her, but damn my mind for wanting more than that. Something has to change. I feel like I have the answers but it's so damn difficult for me to implement them. Oh well, at least she'll see what I'm like in my element.

 

[Ethereal Sage]

nf: Have a sore throat, hurts to swallow and is affecting my right ear. Have the urge to do some surgery.

 

[Caelestia]

that sucks. my friend has to have surgery for his ear.

nf: lonely.

 

[Hiljainen]

NF: fine, except for a headache, last night i went to see "gli atroci" a band that plays a comic version of metal, i really laughed a lot, i recommend them to the italians here

 

[hyena]

@tebs: i really hear you. gigs and partners... worrying combination. i share your feeling when going to shows - it's a release and it's also an intensely private experience, even though a lot of people may be present. i also know that "acting weird" is hard to reconcile with someone we like, especially if it's one of the first occasions in which we see them... i, for one, know that a slam-dancing girl does not impress a man real well, normally. i've also had different types of partners re gigs - i used to have a boyfriend who'd come to all the punk gigs i liked to please me, then another who dragged me at VERY boring concerts where i managed to get drunk and fall asleep, to his utmost irritation. my conclusion after 6 years of asking myself the gig question is: who gives a damn. concerts are an important experience, which we need to rebalance ourselves. partners should be aware that it's very personally relevant to us; if they can somehow join in the feeling or if they like the band, they're welcome to attend; but otherwise they should just leave us with our private time spent headbanging, pogoing, stage-diving and looking silly.

 

[Arch]

NF: Happy and tired. The 3-4 hours of As I Lay Dying, Killswitch Engaged, and In Flames are killing me feet. Other than that, I got to meet Squeak at the venue and afterwards. She's a great gal in real life.

 

[King Chaos]

NF: Im tired and uncomfortable.