Not-so-good-and-old "How do you feel" thread

[Human Desert]

I saw four gigs of them

Sorry to hear about having new neighbours to your room


NF: one one hand I wish it was already two weeks later, on the other hand I wish I had four weeks of more time, but with the knowledge and things organized of today.... I wonder if there ever is the right time for anything.....

FOUR?! Good gods.. *so jealous*
Though i've seen them play 4:16 AM and Gehenna, nerr nerr [/boast]

nf: Bored, and i can't be bothered going anywhere tonight but i have to, grrrr..

 

[Ethereal Sage]

NF: Happy! Dammit!

 

[Caelestia]

nf: not bad, sort of weird. my mum received a letter today from her sister-in-law in london. my uncle passed away in december but didn't want her to know. i've never met him, seen him only in photos. his poor widowed wife is all alone now and pretty miserable. hurrah, my family has so many health problems, i'll probably be dead before we know it. also frustrating is that there's so much miscommunication and many childish grudges in my family. i wish i had a brother. maybe i wouldn't feel alone as often i do. and i suppose it would be odd to add that i'm thinking of joining a gym but money is a worry. then again, what's new?

 

[lumitalvi]

NF: sad. Why do so many people have such huge loads of shit in their lifes. I want to help and be a friend but I have my limits as well.

 

[Caelestia]

@lumi: i hear ya. we do the best we can and hope that it helps somehow *hug*

 

[fireangel]

NF: I am thinking about my future (work). When I started to study, a part (not all of it!) of my motivation was to contribute with my knowledge and skills to improving problems in the world, such as political conflicts and wars, or the protection of nature, or better town planning.

but meanwhile my interests shifted a bit, I am very interested in culture, too, and not only as a hobby. Or rather, I was always interested in cultural things, but some years ago I could not imagine that I would work in the field, too, I was a bit more driven towards "rational" & solid issues. Then I can´t sleep at night because it´s driving me insane that if I would actively choose the cultural sector as workplace, I would not fulfill my "place in the world", because I could have done a work that could improve other people´s lives, or even save it, in the very literal way. When I read the newspaper, or just think about the conflicts in the world, on one hand I would like to find my place there and reduce the overall misery for about 0,001 %, and on the other hand I just want to close my ears, eyes and mind for it and not care anymore, and not have all those problems following me and just deal with designing a fancy festival logo and organizing culture-activities or do a nice interview with Sentenced....

*sigh*

 

[KoichCPA]

nf: NUDE

 

[rahvin]

@lumi; @li: dunno about the rest, but you guys are helping me a lot. *hugs back*

 

[MagSec4]

The weather is crap and I'm seriously thinking that instead of handing in a philosophy essay, I will just hand in a sheet with the the statement "writing this essay induced too much anxiety, therefore I made the active choice of not writing it, thus releiving myself of said anxiety and choosing to fail philosophy, which is my choice here in this life. Besides, like Nietzsche said, there's nothing wrong with failing and I am proud to admit I have failed to complete this task. And anyway, if I tried, I would just be living up to my role as a student, which, according to Sartre, is a way of escaping from my freedom. I am free to write this essay if I wish to, but I am also free to refuse. Therefore I make the choice to refuse, in my wish to live an authentic life. Thank you."
And did I mention the weather's bad?
And it's funny that sad and glad rhyme.

That's great.
..I think you're due for a looong vacation

NF: Happy! Dammit!

|,,/

nf: not bad, sort of weird. my mum received a letter today from her sister-in-law in london. my uncle passed away in december but didn't want her to know. i've never met him, seen him only in photos. his poor widowed wife is all alone now and pretty miserable. hurrah, my family has so many health problems, i'll probably be dead before we know it. also frustrating is that there's so much miscommunication and many childish grudges in my family. i wish i had a brother. maybe i wouldn't feel alone as often i do. and i suppose it would be odd to add that i'm thinking of joining a gym but money is a worry. then again, what's new?

Oh I can relate to some of that, and I wish you had a sibling :/

 

[Human Desert]

NF: sad. Why do so many people have such huge loads of shit in their lifes. I want to help and be a friend but I have my limits as well.

Well, by giving up and stopping trying to help and being a friend, you can only put them through more shit. Even if they don't tell you that they appreciate it, i'm sure they do anyway. Just stay strong for them.

NF: IMPOSSIBLE TO SEE.ME.BREAK Waiting for an email.

 

[Sunjammer]

NF: Selfish and ungrateful. I just realized that I've been receiving a lot of help from you folks recently and I feel like I haven't given much (or anything) back. I'm sorry if I've acted like a pompous ass...

 

[Human Desert]

NF: Crying too much to be able to breathe

 

[ouagadougou]

omg *hugs Santtu*

NF: kinda annoyed and pissed off (cause of damn stupid wille grrr), kinda sad (cause of a documentary i just saw and santtu being sad), kinda excited and happy (cause of pain of salvation)

 

[lumitalvi]

@all of you commenting on my ourburst:
first of all rahv, *hugg*
sencond: the worst thing in "trying to help" is the that in the end there is really nothing you can do. Every one of us decides how we act next and even though we get help the answer is always in us. Kinda wish it wasn´t. Not always anyway.
I try to help. I listen, I dry the tears. I want to do it, but it is just so fucked up that in the end.. it really ... just.. is not.. anything.

Arhg.. I KNOW what you mean it makes a difference to have people who care. I just got sooooo frustrated. Fuck all mental problems!!!

EDIT: I didn´t say I wanted to stop. Hell no!
EDIT2: I rock at COMplaining, but I suck at EXplaining. Blaergh.

 

[Dark_Jester]

Got the European Law (actual title: Legal Issues in European Integration) exam tomorrow, hope it goes well...

 

[King Chaos]

GOOD LUCK Jester of all that is Dark!!!

 

[hyena]

@dj/kc: go, fight, win.

@fireangel: yeah, 'twas work-related. i would need 4 more weeks which i don't have to finish everything i need to do, but i'm also very tired and i would like to go on holiday right now. which doesn't make a lot of sense.

as for your social usefulness idea... i've thought hard about the thing and here's my conclusion. there's two ways of being involved in jobs that allow you, say, to lessen the suffering of people caught in a war. the first way: working for a non-governmental organization, especially if you choose to live in a third world country and work for the destitute there. the second way: working somewhere that will get you either into politics at the international level or into the group of technocrats who control the financial flows towards developing countries. the first way has a huge catch, which is: you don't make enough money in ngo's, so some of your life plans could end up being crippled. the second way has a catch too, which is: very long-term planning and very hard work is required, although at least the salaries are good. i don't think there is a third way, if you want to actually work in this area. have you ever thought of choosing the career path which appeals more to you, i. e. something in culture/advertising/music, and then devoting your free time to volunteer work? this might strike a good balance for you.

@all those who want a brother: you can have mine anytime.

 

[Dark_Jester]

To everyone: I will succeed. This cat demands it.

I am not foolish enough to disobey the cat.

 

[King Chaos]

@ the cat:
WTF

 

[Human Desert]

that cat rules!

@ Pullero: *hugs back* Aww don't be sad. What was the documentary about?

@ Lumi: Believe me, it does help. Just being there and not leaving helps more than you know.