@cot: i would never say that this man is stupid. i wouldn't, because i really love him, and if i were held at gunpoint with someone asking me to proclaim his idiocy i'd probably let them shoot me. rahvin knows this is true.
i was just saying that the general principle of not renouncing some belief just because you've held it for years is a bit rigid. not something related to religion - related to everything. see, i do research in econometrics. if someone comes up with a fantabulous, mind-shattering new theory tomorrow, i wouldn't refuse it because i went along with the old school for years. it's the same everywhere.
nf: my father just told me that he's got to go through the same row of exams this man i mentioned went through, milan, same hospital, same purpose. this, the bishop, the soulmate (also connected to the mentor), the great chaos. i see such a tragic space for meaning. i don't even want it, since the suffering involved seems to be so huge, but it's just like i can't go anywhere else. scary.