Hubster
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I think I am a secret sociopath. I have vivid, real violent fantasies about hurting people but I'd never act on them. I flirt hard with and then ditch men I find stupid and irritating just to ruin their night out because I think they suck. I am disgusted by anyone I deem "difficult to look at." I flip off cars and yell at people I catch staring at me and completely ignore people I don't feel like talking to in face-to-face interactions.
But I also have a job/get along with coworkers, a good relationship with my family/Man-Purse, and lots of friends I trust. So maybe not so sociopathic.
I can totally understand all this. To me, this is all normal.
I have an extreme intolerance for the general public. I have a overwhelming dislike for sheep herd mentality and find it very difficult to get into 99% of social circles because I just cannot put on a show and pretend I'm interested in what the majority of people have to say, which in truth, is never very much. I cannot stand bullshit chit chat with people I couldn't give a fuck about, yet am happy to chat about the most irrelevant and anti-intellectual rubbish with the people I truly cherish.
I prefer the company of odd people, distorted, strange, disjointed and more extreme in style of thinking, but not realists as I find them rather linear and boring. Idealists, dreamers, artists. I can deal with extroverts, but become frustrated with them quickly as I find their public peformance to be exactly that, a performance. Yet in a circle of trusted company, I have no problem with someone being loud and silly.
I dunno.