The "What Are You Doing This Moment" Thread

Well until she still needs to study her books for 16 years before she can claim to be the best musician ever and have the required knowledge to share her reading on the internet.
 
Just started my new job as a medical technologist today. Now that I got a job im gonna buy a WRX this weekend, since I now need my own car (havent had one in years).
 
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She ever release anything? I’m a casual fan of the genre. Should have my Hedge Wizard vinyl shipping any day now. :D

She released one track and that's it. She planned on working more but lost interest and focused more on her drawing stuff.
She never played keys before this either. This is her first time fucking around with the instrument

 
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It's often worth getting a second opinion on things. People make mistakes, we'd like to hope those who diagnose humans and pets with fatal diseases don't but the truth is they are human like the rest of us. You never know, the fact that the first guy doesn't do the kind of surgery he thinks is needed might be the silver lining you are looking for because the second guy might find it's not needed at all.
so i saw three more vets over the weekend and yesterday, including a specialist today and im not hearing anything good really. Three of em said that when theres a tumor on the spleen it is almost always cancerous, and even with surgery she would only get a few months at most. Which im not sure is even enough time for her to recover from the surgery. but still there is a slim chance it might not be cancerous but the only way to know is if they open her up. One thing i know for sure is i dont want her to die on a doctors table, if she goes she will go surrounded by her loved ones at home. The first three doctors said that the surgery will be tough on her and that she might not even make it and if she does it will only be for a little while. The "specialist" i saw today wanted to go straight for surgery, said that she will make it through the surgery and slapped with an $10k estimate. I wanted to get an ultrasound(which the first vet recommended) but the fucking "specialists" didnt have an ultrasound machine or tech available or someshit. One of the vets today talked me out of getting a blood transfusion(just to make her feel a little better until i decided what to do), but i think that's what ill be aiming for tomorrow. All the vets are telling me she is not in pain, but rather weak because she's losing blood(some has leaked into her abdomen :() ... and they are also all basically telling me that she is going to pass away soon no matter what i do. I dont know if i should put her through pain and suffering in her last few days with the surgery, let her pass away surrounded by her loved ones at home(since they ALL said shes not in pain) or maybe(i cant even get myself to type this..) call the vet to come over and help her cross the rainbow bridge. Then again, what if the tumor isnt malignant? Fuck my life i dont now what to do I'm so lost and broken right now.
 
If it were me with that information I'd let her go at home without surgery, but it's easier for me to say that than it is for you to do it. Animal doctors are not that much different to human doctors, they are not infallible, mistakes in diagnosis could be made, mistakes in surgery could be made, it sucks when we have to put the lives of pets and humans under such conditions but it's also one of life's harsh realities. If she's not in pain I really don't think I could put her through surgery which is going to be a painful road to recover from if she can do it.
 
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the way she keeps looking at me is just heartbreaking. not a face of someone who isnt in pain :(

i fucking hate the fact that we have to trust these guys with the lives of our loved ones. From what ive seen and experienced throughout my life, doctors/vets/etc have done more harm due to their greed and negligence than good. Most of them are more concerned about the business aspect of things over everything else. Makes me sick to my stomach.

She's super bad in the mornings. Doesnt want to get up, doesnt eat, gums are pale ... then she slowly perks up(if i can even use that here) as the day goes
 
just took an adderall. someone sold me one and i chewed up the extended release beads in there so it should hit me harder. i think im feeling it but im not sure

my parents might let me back in. i got bored and spent yesterday driving around unlicensed with no registration, insurance, or anything. road was closed and there was detour so i got lost in the hood at night and i ended up pulling into a sketchy food lion parking lot and spending the night because there were too many cops. was fine except for the fucking street sweeper that started banging around for like an hour around 1 am. now im just sitting in my car in my parents neighborhood

if u wanna know why i got kicked out, it was cuz i ordered a "suspicous" package which was just a box lmfao
 
the way she keeps looking at me is just heartbreaking. not a face of someone who isnt in pain :(

i fucking hate the fact that we have to trust these guys with the lives of our loved ones. From what ive seen and experienced throughout my life, doctors/vets/etc have done more harm due to their greed and negligence than good. Most of them are more concerned about the business aspect of things over everything else. Makes me sick to my stomach.

She's super bad in the mornings. Doesnt want to get up, doesnt eat, gums are pale ... then she slowly perks up(if i can even use that here) as the day goes

It's hard to know what's going on in the heads of animals but you forever hear about people, oldies especially, who have lived together forever and then once one dies the other doesn't last much longer. Your girl lost her friend not long back, whether she's in physical pain might not be the case, she might be in emotional pain
 
It's hard to know what's going on in the heads of animals but you forever hear about people, oldies especially, who have lived together forever and then once one dies the other doesn't last much longer. Your girl lost her friend not long back, whether she's in physical pain might not be the case, she might be in emotional pain
yeah this all started after he passed away. They were also lifelong partners :(
 
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It could be her way of saying she's ready.
Of course that's no easier on you but it's possible.
 
adderalls alright...it made me feel like skateboarding so i went hard at it for the first time in a while and im in an okay mood but i cant stop ticing out and grinding my teeth
 
I promised myself i would never do that again. I think it's her saying "please help me" ... which is just killing me.

She just woke up from a good few hours of sleep, scarfed down some chicken and canned pumpkin heh. She loves pumpkin
Sounds like she's going through a really tough time mate. Saying goodbye to a beloved pet is never easy.
 
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Fark! I've been flapping around like a blue arse fly today, I don't even remember stopping for lunch. Kids school play is on today and tomorrow, the eldest has one of the lead roles and I got roped in to do all the sound and lights. Two practise performances on Monday, three today and three tomorrow. I don't know if I'm coming or fucking going at the moment.
 
I'm at work thinking about when to leave and where to grab a beer and some snacks afterwards.