@Kovenant
I'd like to try and give you another point of view on your story, if you don't mind...
You trying to be what she wants is the worst solution ever. This IMO is a fact, even if it's a cliché. From what you told I'd say she probably does love you (still), believe it or not. I think it's totally understandable that in a certain point of life she needs to kind of test her limits, have that crazy
no-strings-attached -fase that she can remember when she's, like, 80 y/o and feel like she had the guts to 'really live her life'. Wanting to have a few wild years doesn't mean she doesn't love you. I'd say it's more about her fulfilling her need to get a taste of the 'wild side', even if it meant letting go of you. If she didn't follow her need, she would most likely end up hating you simply because she couldn't do what she wanted in fear of losing you. Really loving someone means giving them space when they need it. Let her go, and if she loves you, she'll come back. (Am I cheesy or what?! :Smug: )
Of course this is just my interpretation of what you wrote. The reason why I personally chose to understand her behaviour this way is that these kinds of feelings are very familiar to me, too. It's really difficult to make a decision of either sticking with a relationship that prevents you from doing something you really want to do or letting go of someone special just to fulfill your selfish needs.
Then again, I'm no expert on relationsip issues. I always was a loner.
Anyway, I hope you'll get over it soon and realize she's not a prerequisite for your happiness. I wish you all the best.
-Lamia
