It's H O P E L E S S !!!wildfyr said:sure. sure. when pigs fly.
No!! >(panzersomething said:NF: quite content with my cave-dwelling existence. the world outside be damned!
ehh... I shouldn't have read all that. Anytime I hear about any kind of health problem that I didn't know existed I start thinking too much about it and it becomes something else to be scared of. oh well.rahvin said:this is the way it works:...
Good lord man, you're my mental clone...Malaclypse said:@mag, hyena: well it's hard to define what i really want. i feel no enthusiasm for my studies right now though the field itself remains interesting theoretically. in fact all i learn is bollox i'll never put to use, and that's what really annoys me. were i to learn a programming language that's actually being used, i would have a lot less problems, but this crap i have to do now is just plain nonsense, and something restricts me from getting that exam done.
maybe it would be better at another uni, maybe not. maybe another subject would be better, but i doubt it. just now i skimmed through available job appliances for the job i learned before studying, and while doing that, i felt that i could hande quite a number of these jobs quite easily, and that brings me back to my situation two years ago: boredom.
but at least, if i would pick up working once again, at least i'd have money and do something not totally non-sense. whereas, if i continue with studies, i have to force myself violently through some of the classes, leaving me quite disturbed and insecure in times like these.
generally i feel that i like to know about everything, in a very broad way, but not exactly deep. this applies to maths, to programming, to drumming and loads of other things. i can't dedicate myself to one subject as much as is sometimes needed at uni, and maybe that's the main problem. i need focus.
speaking of which, here i am, in a bloody internet forum... i need to get something done ffs.
i remember that the last time this kind of thing had happened, back in 1993, i ended up being injected a massive dosage of painkillers on a sunday morning, right after the most devastating attack (about 2 hours of almost complete blindness, and pain as if i had been stabbed over the right eye afterwards). they actually did help, but it certainly was no simple aspirin. so at the moment i don't know, and i guess i'll just try my luck with some normal, run-off-the-mill pills.Incendiare said:@rahvin: Do the painkillers actually help? Because I read that nothing can help migraines. If it doesn't go away during the week, perhaps your work field can be a bit empathetic, because the more pressure you pile up, the longer it may take to fully subside.
Spelunking, naturally... well, that's not quite the truth. Hmmm, what do I do other than scout Mortiis habitats? I read, write, and dream of returning to school next month. A recluse I very well may be.hyena said:@kat: what the bu do you do besides dwelling in caves? i'm curious.
is this a ritual enforced in a dictatorial state?hyena said:i'm locked up in a big, cold room with all of italy's reserves of gold, trying to deflect dwarves from stealing them.