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WHOOOOAAAA That's the same tour I just saw them on i think... that means you're gonna get to see DRAGONFORCE!!!! (They are the best powermetal band ever!!!!!) Be amazed at how far their guitar acrobats defy all others. It was so funny when they played bradford... W.A.S.P just could not follow!!! every one was chanting :headbang:dra-gon-force:headbang::headbang:dra-gon-force:headbang: for like ten minutes after they'd finished the set. And before they played no one even knew who they were (apart from me... I went for them). God I wish I could be you for the night!! or at least in Helsinki
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Hehe, you seem like a true powermetal fan whilst I am not. Nice if you enjoyed it. :)
But it's always great to see "new" bands too, should be interesting to see Dragonforce. Just remember that WASP is a legend and "old school" compared to basically any other heavy metal band in the world at the moment. :cool:
 
NF: good, it's my (and a lot of other people's) name-day, which means a lot of parties, but just two i'm going to. :D
 
NF: Bloody pissed off, since I fell asleep a little earlier when I didn't mean to. Now I feel really crap and dead and I'll sleep badly tonight as well. Pah.
 
NF: Amused.
I just read an article about a German couple who had been married for 8 years and not had any children, so they went to a fertility clinic, where they were examined, and found to be perfectly able to produce children. When asked how often they had sex, they didn't understand what that was. Apparently they had grown up in strictly religious families and didn't know how children were made...
I wonder if this is true...
 
the itch, have you heard about
the itch you cannot scratch

time for a refresher on my life.

guy a

is wonderful. sat next to me tonight during a kebab dinner for six. i had a urge to take his hand and kiss his knuckles. i kept looking at his unruly hair, seeing the patterns weaved by chaos in his soul (yes, i'm cheesy, and i also listened to skid row in the early nineties). drink helped to relax so i also managed to exchange a few jokes with him during the night, the first one we spent together in months. also, he asked me to lunch for tomorrow. i forget a detail: he rejected me on march 21st, and he still goes out with heather love. actually, he doesn't go out. they mainly stay in. he's coming on holiday with me and a few mates. he's also cutting the holiday short since the place where she works closes on aug. 10th and he can't leave her alone for long. i did suggest she comes to the island where we're going. i didn't mention she might be left there.

guy b

fits the plan, if there ever was someone fitting it. i sat in front of him last night during an indian dinner for two. he's fun. i cried with laughter for some thirty minutes, which isn't a normal occurrence. i don't like his hands and i have no urge to kiss them, although his eyes - which he averts all the time - are not all that bad. he says 'thanks for spending the night with me', he wants me to call him, he knows things, i can bombard him with deep questions and although he doesn't have the answer i don't feel silly while telling the truth. he knows he has a drinking problem. so do i. i mean, i know i do have one. his father is from the wretched area of friuli, notoriously owned by one mr. ietri, but it's not his fault, after all. three problems: one, i feel a desire to send him messages detailing my depressive state, he doesn't - or if he does he doesn't write. two (and a consequence), i'm rejectable, although this is not going to happen for months, because i don't even know if i'm interested, eventhough the plan does not leave many chances. three, i feel all sick about guy a, which is most definitely not a good sign.

work

is making me feel unappreciated and generally a bit stupid. i bang my head against the wall every day, will be in the office this weekend and the one that follows. i produce way much than most people do, still i'm not in a moment of fame and fortune, nor i do stopper death. yeah, june 4th is coming, and so is the prisoner of azkaban. i'm on a tangent here. anyway, people couldn't care less about me, because i'm secondary, and so is my whole office at the moment. we really are not relevant to the powers that be. i want to be in their heart. i came so close last summer, then managed to fuck up in february by failing a selection. i'm not trying again.

the past

last week i told my ex that i think that not being all happy about someone because he or she doesn't like the music we do is a bit stupid (he was complaining about his new partner being insensitive to his favorite bands, which are crap anyway). in this moment, i'd kill anyone who'd try to stop the record i'm playing. i'm inconsistency incarnated.

the future

sometimes i think i've got it all figured out, and everyone fits in the plan. sometimes i'd just love to be left alone.

maybe you've got something i've never seen
maybe all you've got is nothing
 
NF: Tired after another bad night of sleeping after that evening nap, but I shouldn't complain really. I'll just try to remember my dreams instead, which I think were many and varied... just not clear enough to write about yet. I'm also a little disappointed that the Legend of Zelda - The Ocarina of Time soundtrack I downloaded yesterday isn't identical to the music found on the game, it's slightly different. So I'm disappointed about this, and I hope that A Link to the Past will be better.
 
NF: trying to ignore my mom yelling.

I forgot to thank you hyena, Mags, Tranquillian, mousie and Arch for your congrats. Heartfelt thanks. :)
 
@hyena:

guy 1 doesn't want you. it seems to me it's high time to come to the conclusion that he wouldn't want you even if love did not exist (and yes, i'm going to exploit this opportunity for puns until my dying day, sorry). otherwise he would have either admitted something to you or even played around a bit. i can hardly imagine him steadfast enough to reject completely and wholly an opportunity he might like when there would be plenty of room to be all messy about it. after all him and love haven't always seen eye to eye, there has been turmoil and complications, and none of that made him admit to feelings for you.
if we accept that he doesn't want you, he can still be wonderful, but you better have his awesomeness happen on a planet you're not inhabiting. this is going to stop your mind from fantasizing over impossible scenarios (impossible since he doesn't want anything to do with those, not impossible because of love. love, as i feel the need to remind you, is not everything. love is just a cook) and perhaps even reduce his prospective awesomeness: hard to be a brilliant conversationalist when you're not there to hear the conversation. this is extremely subjective and quite biased, but we just want it to work, we don't care about the sacrosanct structure of reality, considering the sacrosanct structure of reality is killing you.
so add the words in my signature to yours - because we're leaving nothing but moments of belonging, like d:a:d used to say - and avoid contact with guy 1 until he's pushed so far back in your mind that a group of fearless dwarves wouldn't dare go deep enough to dig him out.

guy 2 might not reject you after all. and since you've expressed the intention to, at some point, settle for a viable and rational option even if it's not the earth-shattering experience we're all choking for our sentimental life to be, you should probably go for it now that your hour of need seems imminent and your objectives are clear enough. i'd hate to see you turn bitter and distant from the very good things you can achieve in life because of all the hallucinated visions of perfect relationships that you know you can do without. try this guy out, see if the passion and dedication grows in time: you're certainly one of the few people in the world who can bend spoons with her force of will, and i'm sure in a while - provided of course he's ok with it - things would turn just peachy. other sides in your life will benefit from that as well, and in the blink of an eye you could find yourself on top of the world, at least looking at the stars if not exactly grasping one in your hand.

forgive the lack of intelligent things to say. i would have felt bad had i remained silent, even though i'm obviously as insightful as a red brick.
 
@rahve: thanks. the point is that guy 2 never expressed a sentimental interest. he expresses interest, quite intensely actually, but thanking the almighty heavens he's not the kind of person who thinks "i'm calling her twice in a week because i want to score". he probably calls people he likes, and i don't even think he knows that most people do it to score, be it a lay, a date, a relationship. well, we'll see.

edit: uh, i was forgetting the main point. say i start going out with guy 2 (actually, we already do. i don't stay in with him). then guy 1 or someone in the same league comes to me and proposes a relationship. i'd either stick to guy 2 for the sake of all that is good and chew on my lower lip for the following 30 years, or destroy the world with a single facial expression.
 
@hyena: i find it more likely for a guy who doesn't even know about the techniques and strategies of hitting on people to be motivated by actual affection and therefore interest when he chooses to contact you. considering you're not looking for the ones aiming to get laid quickly, you're isolating a category who expresses true interest by messaging friends, and who would never dream of choosing a sentimental interest outside those who fit the aforementioned definition of friends.

the above reasoning looks suspiciously loopy (attenti ai lupi) if i read it again, so i'm not reading it again. please just read it once yourself.
 
actually serious complaint that i am pissed off today is because last night.. i came home at 00:30.. at 01:00 someone had already called a complaint and all.. saying i played to loud music. i've been thro neighbours playing until 4:am.. naturally hiphop and shit.. but i never complained.. that made me fucking ANGRY!

np: NP: Dismember - Tragedy Of The Faithful [03:46m/227Kbps/44KHz]
 
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