Not-so-good-and-old "How do you feel" thread

[fireangel]

rahvin: great post! I like it a lot. And btw, it is not "suomi", because that is the country. It´s "suomea" because when you have a word ending with E and change more, then I (in this case, not always) changes to E. And its EA because of partitive (lesson 1a )

Hiljainen: good to hear about some kind of "positive" about your headaches. Maybe it is really more the psychological reason (which is also a good one!) and that is why they can´t find it.

NF: like crap.
I went to see SubUrban Tribe yesterday and I am deeply disappointed about their new songs. It´s not that I don´t like them, it is that they come from SubUrban Tribe, and that´s the sad thing
And now I am fighting with a good friend because of SubUrban Tribe. It´s awful. Lot´s of hurtings been done to everyone
I hope I can solve it. Otherwise it will be terrible

 

[rahvin]

rahvin: great post! I like it a lot. And btw, it is not "suomi", because that is the country. It´s "suomea" because when you have a word ending with E and change more, then I (in this case, not always) changes to E. And its EA because of partitive (lesson 1a )

thank you for the approval and the tips. i gather you're still in finland. is there a trick to it at all? i'll mail you at some point later, we need to talk *looks like he means business*.

 

[fireangel]

I`ll fly back on monday. I have to mail you, too. Especially about that post and stuff, there are tons of things to talk about. But now I am in the library, as usually, and I can´t focus as much as if I would be in peace at home. But when I am back...

the trick? Save all your money only for this. Borrow some more from your parents. Neglect university and run away from life (because my life, like yours, is not sorted enough to move over immediatly...)... That´s the trick :/

I guess it was worth, it, though, this time again. I had great birthday and couple of cool surprises. I saw Katatonia. Now I just need to be friends with my friend again and some more things, because that is very_bad_right_now...

 

[hyena]

APPLAUSE

i failed my exam at work too. HA! it was a close call, apparently mine was one of the uncertain ones - meaning a part of the commission intended to pass me, and the rest wanted to fail... well, it doesn't really come as a surprise, i said from day one that it was either a slight pass or a slight fail.

[/APPLAUSE]

 

[Kovenant84]

@Rahv: I'm feeling in a desperate way that I need to give some kind of advice and try and help you feel better, but my constant 'pulling-advice-out-of-ass' ability won't work in this case. I just wish I had something reassuring to tell you, but anything I think I could say has been said much more eloquently by those before me. To top it off, I'm in virtually the exact same emotional state as you right now, and haven't figured out what I'm going to do yet, so it'd be worse than hypocritical for me to try and tell you what to do. In any case, just know that wherever you wind up, we'll all be here for ya.

~Kov

 

[rahvin]

@hyena: and after the phone comes the post. here too, i'm sorry and close to disbelieving it. the cook-shagging ass himself is not worth your little finger and it's purely pathetical that the world still doesn't realize that you're meant to be airborne. *hugs*. today is slowly but deribelately rising to new highs in lows.

@kov: thanks man, it means a lot to me just to read people's participation. i'm sorry you feel the same way that i do, it seems this is the way with most of us around here: bunch of discomforted boys and girls struggling to achieve. i'm scared, we're scared.

 

[hyena]

@rahve: he did nothing bad, poor kid. he actually tried to save my sorry bum, but he was outnumbered. i think he was pretty cool, actually, and he delivered the news in a delicate way if anything. airborne i'll be, i promise.

 

[rahvin]

i wasn't saying he did something wrong, just implying that someone like him in the judging team and someone like you failing the exams shouldn't happen in the same universe. you're worth more. that's it.

 

[fireangel]

hyena:

I guess there is no more to say that when you are down, the only way is up!

though I hate things like you described, too, and wish they would not happen, I take those as an involuntary chance to sit down, take some deep breaths and think about one´s life and what to do next.
Take crises as something to learn from and maybe bring new directions or aspects to your life that otherwise would not have been.... So the problems would be not completely useless

 

[hyena]

@fire: exactly. you're right. now the codeword is regroup. i'll try to. and manage to. only way's up.

 

[Northern Lights]

@rahvin: well well well... I really don't know too much about actually moving to sweden, however, my mother does happen to be a teacher for SFI, Svenska För Invandrare (Swedish for immigrants). I'm not sure if there are any language certificates such as the Cambridge one to be acquired outside of Sweden, but I do know that once you get to the country, you will most likely take an SFI-course. How long you stay there depends on how good you are - some remain taking lessons for a year, some finish it in 3-4 months. You can work while taking these classes.
As for jobs, http://www.ams.se/englishfs.asp?C1=223 could be of some help.
Keep in mind that apartments in bigger cities can be difficult to find and rather expensive once you do find them...
Anyway, I'm not entirely sure about the whole procedure, but I'll do some research if you'd like me to

 

[rahvin]

*faints* me... needs... meet... nl's mom...
yes, by all means, all information you might have is certainly more than welcome. i had checked that site out a while ago and it does provide some info, but in the end it seems that word of mouth is still the main road to find jobs there. i'm not really aiming to anywhere in particular, but of course a bigger city like goteborg or sotkholm might provide more offerings. what if i wanted to work on my language skills, such as - say - the fact that i might end up with decent swedish/finnish fluency, very good english, good french, native italian... would that get me anywhere in your opinion? do you even need italian teachers, for instance?

 

[Kovenant84]

NF: Okay. In school currently.

Just occurred to me, what with Rahv's trip and all. How come none of you European types ever come visit us? ... Are Nick, Mag, and I not important enough?.... Well... I guess you guys actually have cool countries, but still!

~Kovenant ( )

 

[rahvin]

it's a matter of ticket prices and quantity of space to cover just to meet one of you. i can't possibly find the time or the money now to travel coast-to-coast meeting umers in the states. i hope as many of you as possible try to get to tuska in july, and as for the rest, it's gotta be next year at least, and only if i somehow become a bestselling writer or win the lottery.

 

[hyena]

nf: like the oddball oddball.

i'm all upside down. and i haven't been drinking, just playing waaay too much old ska.

 

[Kovenant84]

Hehe, I was just joking. I know perfectly well why its near impossible for anyone to come over here, and rather pointless, too. I mean, unless one were coming here for some other reason, we really have no big cool concerts, and there's only like 3-4 of us on here in this damn country. As far as the bestselling writer thing, yeah I could see that happening :-D

Actually, how many of you non-U.S. peoples have been here before, just out of curiosity?

And unfortunately, I don't see myself being able to come to tuska, this year or next... I'm flat broke and need to spend my summers earning up some money so I'm not completely fucked upon leaving college...

~Kovenant

 

[hyena]

i've been in washington, d.c. this summer, on a one-month business trip.

EDIT: all you're getting today is italians spilling their guts, apparently. i feel inclined towards confessions myself.

1. i just inadvertently knelt on a CD (yes, this is possible) and smashed the case. it was paradise lost's icon.

2. i'm a jumping-through-hoops type of person. now it's perfectly clear. i have talent, but i'm also haphazard in using it. my recent employment/study history is the proof of this.

i graduated soon and with high marks, both because it's easy (so i didn't need to put much effort into it) and because in the first two years, when the reputation had to be formed with the faculty and the core subjects were taken, i actually took my work seriously.

then life broke in, to varying degrees of intensity. my msc year (also coinciding with the 1st phd year) was a waste of time from the scientific point of view, because all i did was trying to profit from living in london to get the maximum amount of fun possible. i got the master's because, as i said, i jump through hoops quite well, and i managed to scrape passes in just the necessary amount of subjects to go home with a piece of paper proving my supposed worth. my application for harvard was rejected tho, and my very intelligent policy of applying for one uni only left me with my italian phd option only: this was a first proof that there's only a certain degree of deception one can spawn without getting caught. the kind folks at admissions in cambridge, MA (did I mention that nothing good ever comes out of that state?) just didn't fall for it. and who can blame them?

the ability to fool people and come out on top surfaced again in my second phd year, when i managed to get hired from a good university as a lecturer in subjects i didn't really know anything about. that year was wonderful: made friends, one of which is one of the people dearest to my heart, had tons of fun, drank loads of beer, and managed to learn what i was supposed to teach. also had a good summer, studied for 20 days and got my current job, thanks to a mix of good academic background and sheer luck.

but, again, i'm not an undergrad anymore, and i never was a successful postgrad, no matter what i had people in three different universities believe. so when i tried serious postgrad stuff, like the exam i knew about today, i was sort of bound to fail. you don't get a promotion in a competitive environment thanks to generic slytherinism and a nice personality. on the other hand, i've been getting loads of props at work exactly because of creativity, flexibility, and ability to adapt: in a nutshell, i don't know much, but i'm quick-witted and sometimes even dedicated, so i'm an asset, just not the top-notch asset i fancy myself being.

so there.

 

[rahvin]

@hyena: once more i'll save the encouraging words for when we're drunk and illiterate. your approach to knowledge has always been pretty unconventional and i can't imagine it being any different in your specific field of work. this has paid off in the past as a tell-tale sign of extremely developed intelligence and as one of focused volition. as we all know very well, i tend to give the same impression when it comes to the first part, and definitely not the same when it comes to the second. my plus was that in some occasions teachers and authorities were doubtful of your apparent recklessness and lack of rules, and approved more of yours truly, who seemed more docile and less inclined to dispute theories until the morning light. in general, it's pretty obvious from where we are now that on a professional level your attitude is by far more appreciated: by getting things done you convince most people that you're the right person and the one voted most likely to succeed. i say it's a matter of time before the flaws of a not impeccable information background disappear under a wave of resurgent trust for your ability to employ your skills at their best and achieve the damn dealbreaking result.
it most definitely did not work this time, and i think it's really their loss (and yours. of course), as i cannot begin to imagine how the other candidates could have been more apt for an increase in responsibilities. it might even boil down to the acceptance of a peculiar philosophy about taking the risk and challenging oneselves that you carry along with your jumping through hoops. some do like it more, others less. chances are its successfulness will eventually prove its validity, and you're still in a position where successfulness is seen by the right people in the right occasions.
that's my only vaguely logical thinking on the subject for now. i'm sorry i can't do more, but i'm haunted by stuff myself.

 

[Naku ist krig]

nf: not bad. just solved my "education things" today, havent ruined my future yet


@thosewhoaremistreatedbylife: *hugs* I say let´s kill one outsider and everything´s fine again. I hope you all feel better tomorrow. Seriously.

 

[Dark_Jester]

To everyone with academic problems, I know the feeling, I'm fighting tooth and claw for legal training contracts and summer placements. With 50-60 applicants per place, the competition is stupidly intense, and it's all luck of the draw. Aaaaah, to prostitute yourself for your future