Not-so-good-and-old "How do you feel" thread

[mousewings]

@RealHazard: thanks for clearing that up. Yeah, that would be annoying. It's not like everyone has the same feelings or emotions. I think some guys are more interested in getting into uni than getting laid. Some. j/k

@hyena: Thank you.

 

[rahvin]

I think some guys are more interested in getting into uni than getting laid. Some.

gullible fool! and why do you think they want to get into uni in the first place?

 

[Steve]

I'm not doing well... I didn't have internet access for a long time and I'm doing horribly.
I'm not posting in this thread as much as I keep this stuff in DeadJournal (easier to communicate with friends than LJ)

here's something from today:

I wrote several long entries while I didn't have net access and saved them in wingdings so my mom couldn't read them... now they're fucked up and I can't switch them back.
Now I wrote a lot and I clicked on the winamp help thing by accident and it opened in this window and lost what I wrote...
Finally got internet access back today... ian and i stayed up cleaning last night fo tehm and I got waken at 730 this morning. she let me "sleep" until 9, although she's so fucking loud I couldn't sleep. Once I get up she screams at me constantly. I got so fucking pissed off I told her to shut up and she kept clawing me trying to slap me. now I have two nice cuts on my arm from her fingernails. She went somewhere and Ian is letting me use the comp for a while, but whenever she's home I won't be able to do anything, and I won't be able to leave the house ever. She's bitching about how I'm a monster and she hates me and once I graduate she's going to kick me out, and she's worse than ever...
I hope this improves...
I didn't even bother to ask about novembers doom... she was screaming at me for anythign even before this. for the past fucking month I've been trying as hard as I can to make her happy and she doesn't care.
Lesson learned: don't try. period.
She says she doesn't want to talk to me ever again, but she's already whining at me again.. maybe tomorrow I'll just disappear to go hang out with steve or something... she'll kill me, but I'm sick of being here...
It would help to have ian there with a car though.. he has no class on monday so he would be able to stay out late, although "ELEVEN IS VERY LATE!"
I don't think I'll be able to do anything for a long time though... If I do just disappear and not tell her about something, I think Morbid Angel in NYC in april would be good though. it's aroudn my birthday so maybe I have a chance....
I don't feel like writing any more... noone cares anyway... just takes up my time and makes it go faster.

 

[Salamurhaaja]

NF: I just finished a 3 hour sitting with Devil May Cry on the PS2
Talk about being in the zone, there hasn't been a game in a long that
has held my interest for so long, especially since I was supposed to eat
something too hahah
It's the work of Satan that PS2 is, yes indeed, banish thee to... wait, go
to my room

Anyway, now to make something to eat.

 

[hyena]

@steve: ouch. i'm starting to be worried about your situation.

i always thought skydancer was my fave dt album, but now i realize that haven is, at least when i go through emotional turmoils. the sounds are richer and fuller than in all the other efforts. maybe it's less subtle than, say, damage done or the mind's i, but the impact is more immediate. some times i think it's bordering on 'common', while the other records are more élite in a way... but still, i get involved in some songs as much as i get involved in greg graffin's vocals, which is top involvement in music for me.

nf: undecided. should i go on a suicide mission and try to tell the guy i like 'i like you so stop messing with my head, although i know you don't know it on purpose' (pretty confusing already) or just be a chicken and avoid the topic altogether?

 

[Steve]

nf: undecided. should i go on a suicide mission and try to tell the guy i like 'i like you so stop messing with my head, although i know you don't know it on purpose' (pretty confusing already) or just be a chicken and avoid the topic altogether?

Make it a non suicide mission and bring a bottle of GHB, chloroform, and "protection"

why not though? nothing's ever going to happen, and if you make a few subtle hints or low key references it can't be bad, unless he's a complete asshole.

 

[hyena]

thanks. i tried with the subtle hints, but it's quite possible that my subtlety is excessive (has happened in the past) and i happen to be the only one to understand. but i like the chloroform option.

are you a normally unruly young man in a very strict household or are you actually wreaking havoc? why is your mom so mad at you?

 

[Delirious]

rahvin: I´m not the right person to give good advice and I´m horribly bad at expressing emotions, in this case sympathy. just know that I would drench you in both otherwise.
and be sure to grab that rope when it´s thrown down into the pit. to climb it, no other associations allowed.




NF: fuck off, valentine´s day. how can a silly made-up quasi-holiday affect you when you do your best not to even think about it, let alone "celebrating" it?
anyway, more annoyed about it than anything, really. the feared major breakdown remained absent. so it all comes down to a "NF: ok". phew.

 

[Spike]

gullible fool! and why do you think they want to get into uni in the first place?

I KNEW there was a reason I was studying in university! Pity I:

a) Was studying externally

and

b) dropped out

NF: *Sigh* + Tired after staying up to 6AM trying to sory out a Eurail Pass and finding that I'm buggered whichever way I look at it. I went into work today too.... on a sunday.

 

[Naku ist krig]

NF: Good

I resigned from my band after we had recorded some. Now they erase my vocals and I dont have to do kiss their butts anymore.

 

[Northern Lights]

nf: tired. tired, tired, tired. yet I haven't done anything besides studying russian and reading about Jack the Ripper. Teh excitement.

 

[hyena]

nf: silly. i plastered a big Manowar sticker over my guitar.

 

[Child of Time]

NF: Good. Today the morning had already broken when I walked to the bus stop! It feels great, I have survived another winter! Hurray! :Spin: :hotjump: (Okey, I walked to the bus stop one hour later than I use to, but what the hell, let me be happy for a while.)

 

[hyena]

nf: wheee. life could be that simple. lunch with my beloved on the steps of a fountain, sunny day, nice walk afterwards, and then he says he wants to see more of me this week. if only he didn't go out with someone else.

 

[rahvin]

@hyena: i'll do something similar soon, i guess, only without any beloved around. just the same girl from days of yore, who still spends her days so close to my working place that i can't help seeing her from time to time. i don't know if she's dating someone, but as we all know that never meant a thing.

 

[Northern Lights]

NF: I like Strongbow cider.

Today's most annoying conversation:
Person #1: "I watched Six Feet Under last night"
Me: "So did I"
Person #2: "I watched the movie Six Feet Under."
M & P#1: "The movie? But there's just a series"
P#2: "No there isn't, there's a movie too."
P#1: "Was it about the same thing then?"
M: "Yeah, was it about undertakers and all that?"
P#2: "Yes."
M & P#1: "But that's a series only"
P#2: "No it isn't! I saw it on Canal+"
M: "Yeah I know, that's the same channel I saw it on. Belive me, it is a series."
P#2: "No it's NOT! Why was it called Six Feet Under 3 then?"
M & P#1: "Because it's Six Feet Under season 3"
P#2: "No it's not!"
M: "Ok, how long was it then?"
P#2: "I don't know, I didn't see all of it."

Sigh... I really like this person, but... sigh...

Amusing, still

 

[ouagadougou]

hahah great series, btw <3

NF: kinda crap. i found out that my good friend's best friend/girlfriend tried to kill herself last night. it upset my friend a lot, he's usually all happy, but now he's really depressed and afraid that he might lose her. it's terrible. i went for a long walk with him and he sounded as if he'd burst in tears any minute the whole walk. i've never seen him like that before. i wanna help them but i really can't. the girl has gone through a lot and she really doesn't want to live anymore. she's seeing a therapist but she hates going there. she might kill herself and there's nothing i can do about it.
i also have the flu. nose runs, throat hurts and all that shit. zzz

 

[Hiljainen]

I've seen the mummy at school for english class (for the 4th time probably) and it is hilarious, how a golden sword can cut chains i'll never know, as much as i wonder how a normal man can bear in his arms a book that weighs over 100kg..
so i'd say i feel amused

NF also fine :Spin: but kind of out from this forum, weird feeling

 

[rahvin]

@ulla: as someone who's not really in a life-affirming mood right now, i can only say that no matter how much someone's been through, there's always a better way out than choosing to off yourself. sometimes desperation might make us feel that it's the only way, or at least that by doing it the unbearable burden will finally disappear, but if we stop to think about it seriously, there's many more decent ways to achieve the same result while at the same time doing something slightly useful for someone else, or the community as a whole. if you think that debating the issue might help you help your friend('s friend?), i'm up to it: either start a thread if you want to make it public or just pm me if you wanna keep it subdued (and if you're remotely interested in what i might say, of course ). in the meanwhile, keep it up.

 

[ouagadougou]

you always have something wise to say thanks rahvin

methinks i'll make a thread