Not-so-good-and-old "How do you feel" thread

[rahvin]

@rahvin: I hear ya man. I've been so eradic emotionally lately. One day I'm really happy and just content with everything. And then 5 minutes from being in that state, I could feel like a complete waste of flesh and just want to sulk all day. It's so hard for me to remember that "We can if we want to..."

this is quite unfortunate, because it's a change that time and experience bring upon us and yet it doesn't go in any positive direction... i can see quite clearly what kind of situations led me to this, and i assure you that i despise those responsible with a passion. my only hope - at least for you - is something exceptionally good happens and the trend reverts back to a more healthy attitude.

 

[hyena]

@tebs, rahve: i remember discussing this at lenght with someone - after all i think that the lack of balance in emotions, normally emerging when we're close to someone we love with no reciprocation, can be stifled with the usual iron will thingy. i don't practice what i preach, but i think that one can try.

 

[rahvin]

@hyena: am i ever close to anybody i love, with or without reciprocation?
my lack of stability is more motivated by the recent past you know all about than by anything else. i wish i had some iron will to oppose it, while instead i'll just go out in about half an hour and spend the afternoon drinking while i watch some silly movie. with a little luck by the time i'm back tonight i'll be confused enough to skip to monday morning's emotional lack of balance.

 

[hyena]

@rahve: well, depends on the meaning of love. if you're talking about romantic love, i think that closeness is attainable by simply hanging out together, but if there's no reciprocation closeness just provokes emotional turmoil. if you're talking about sibling-like love, closeness doesn't even need that much hanging out, and it is an emotional stabilizer, not a bringer of confusion.

talking about lack of stability, it turns out that the fifth pizza was for the boyfriend of one of my mates. 6 o'clock: three people will be watching a movie. 9 o'clock: one of the three will leave to meet her boyfriend. a couple will arrive. so there's going to be one frozen pizza left. 11 o'clock: the couple will leave, and i'll try and make a fool of myself by discussing why i'm the only one in this charade who doesn't have a partner to meet, except it looks different. 12 o'clock: i'll come home and write on this forum that i actually didn't do anything of the sorts because at 11 i believed that it was a bit late and i was intruding on someone's personal space.

 

[rahvin]

@hyena: i'm not even hanging out with anybody, unless you're suggesting i'm romantically involved with alfred, which could indeed be a very good solution given our common interest for just about everything.

as for your pizza connection, it seems to me plenty of things are frozen after all.

 

[hyena]

i told you some 5 years ago that you and alfred would make a wonderful couple.

by the way, i just got wind of the fact that the couple is not participating, they're staying home. so please everyone pray that no heather love is in sight, i'm that close to winning teh prize. presently, if she's not there i'm having a dinner all to myself, provided my other friend is not terribly stupid.

 

[Caelestia]

*prays for hyena*

nf: relieved and frustrated. relieved because my interview has been postponed, but frustrated because i was quite prepared for it. oh, and also relieved i've completed the first part of that insane survey.

 

[rahvin]

@hyena: good luck and all, you'll let me know tonight.

@caelestia: good girl.

 

[Rusty]

NF: Frustrated with trying to do work that I don't understand, and with other stuff. And feeling very very lonely right now.

 

[Sunjammer]

And feeling very very lonely right now.

Seems like a lot of that is going around. (Me too, by the way.)

NF: In addition to what was said in the line above I feel unmotivated. Why? you ask? No job, no significant other, busy with "work" (favours to friends etc) and the whimsical physical pain of carrying a kidney stone around... I have seen better days.

 

[MagSec4]

Sunjammer: That really sucks, man. Well, what can I say.. just keep holding on, fella. Hopefully life will begin to shine a bit for you sometime in the near future.
Best of luck to you.

You too Rusty.

 

[Sunjammer]

MagSec: Thank you, man. I appreciate it.

 

[Incendiare]

Sunjammer: I hope things will get better for you soon. It's hard when you have so many elements in life that affect you negatively, but in time, wounds will heal. I know you have the willpower to get through it.

NF: Been quite sick lately, and I've been finding it difficult to keep up with homework. Missed all you guys terribly.

 

[rahvin]

@incendiare: me too? me too? *self-centred*

 

[Incendiare]

Especially you.

 

[Rusty]

Thanks, MagSec.

NF: Wishing rep was still here so I could've said that in a rep comment instead of wasting a post on it.

 

[rahvin]

Especially you.

wow, candy-coated lies! teh yummy!

 

[Dark_Jester]

wow, candy-coated lies! teh yummy!

Self-respect man!
Keep the sense of mystery :Smokedev:

 

[fireangel]

i wish i had some iron will to oppose it, while instead i'll just go out in about half an hour and spend the afternoon drinking while i watch some silly movie. with a little luck by the time i'm back tonight i'll be confused enough to skip to monday morning's emotional lack of balance.

so which movie? already been there? drunk now? and what about your emotional balance? (yes, I am curious)

 

[rahvin]

so which movie? already been there?

"matchstick men". saw it at alfred's. while i was getting drunk and visiting his toilet, he mercilessly posted on the survey thread the answer to one question. i love him, you know. but i fucking hate him too when he goes like this.

drunk now?

yase. wish i could drink more and spend the night feeling terribly sick so all thought is erased, but no luck. i won't colour the bathroom red tonight.

and what about your emotional balance? (yes, I am curious)

yeah, what about it? it sucks. ran off with someone else, that's what it did.