ok, this is going to sound odd.
in the past couple of weeks i've experienced a weird phenomenon: when i get up in the morning i instinctively think of rusty.
i don't really think anything in particular about him, it's more like the sudden thought that rusty exists crosses my mind. i have a brief flash of rusty's avatar, or maybe some joke he cracked the day before, then it's done and the feeling ebbs away.
it might be because i tend to relate to him when it comes to consideration of the self and trust in human relationship, aka the marvelous things they can entail (and won't). but i'm not sure my train of thoughts in the early morning is so elaborate after all.