Are you ever sober, Onder?
I just have this instinct of healing hangover with beers. I learned that its the most functional way to get rid of it. I mean, I felt like shit for this whole day and now I had a beer with a guy we call Cattle and I feel superb. Just three beers. Were going out tonight with my girl and him. My girl has to pay for me though because I dont have much more left. Cattle owes me one too, so it should work out. Well see. Hopefully I wont have more than 8 more beers so I dont feel like shit tommorow. So Im not an alcoholic, if you ask about that. Sober? Not often, but neither an alcoholic imho.
Well, tbh, I dont care how I will feel tommorow really. Now is now, and Im thirsty as a homosexual flying fuck.
Also, Ive seen a car crash today. A senior in a smallest possible car turned left and got fucked from koda Fabia. There was another granny in the crashed Daewoo and as it happened in front of a post office, she went there to pay some bills while her 80 years old husband got mocked from the young driver for shitty driving. I was more surprised about my own reaction, as I wasnt really freaked out when I was watching it happen, I just smiled and it made me feel aboslutely satisfied that Im having a cigarette there like if nothing happened. Absolutely brilliant. If the Fabia went a little faster, the granny would never ever go to post office again, as it wrecked the passenger door. That would be even better but I dreamt about my fathers death two days back so I dont feel so good about calling an ambulance, which I would have to do.
In the dream I knew that he had died in the crash, but I just had to call an ambulance anyway so it doesnt look stupid if I didnt. I called 121212 (which is an imaginary dream ambulance number) and there was "I feeel goood" song playing as I waited for them to pick it up. My father was dead in front of me.