The "What Are You Doing This Moment" Thread

[PrincessHades]

Listening to some black metal and eating kidney beans while being sad.

 

[The Butt]

Smoking weed.

Can't wait to climb into my sleepy-time forever box tbh

 

[TechnicalBarbarity]

Smoking weed.

Can't wait to climb into my sleepy-time forever box tbh

Get a hold of yourself, buttface!

Whats goin on man?

 

[PrincessHades]

Smoking weed.

Can't wait to climb into my sleepy-time forever box tbh

I hope you feel better man, been there many times.

 

[TechnicalBarbarity]

Do any of you guys fuck with instagram? I made one just to follow bands and post pics of my collection. Most of the OG bands are on there too Sadus, Dark Angel, Coroner, Razor, Autopsy, Demolition Hammer, Morbid Saint, Immolation, Voivod, Cancer, etc. Seems to be quickest/easiest way to stay up to date with the bands.

@CiG i know youre on there, you hobosexual werebeast. If anyone else is on there shoot me a message.

 

[CiG]

Followed ya bruv.

 

[TechnicalBarbarity]

Followed ya bruv.

...oh shit so the "Throbbing Black Werebeast" wasnt you

 

[CiG]

That might be an old account of mine haha I don't remember making it though.

 

[Cronopio]

So I just got back from Rotterdam yesterday and now I'm chilling.

 

[PrincessHades]

Waking up, listening to some music as usual. I'm probably going to play some WaW zombies, listen to more music, etc. and then I'll do some cleaning around the house, work out, then maybe go on a nature walk with my dad.

 

[PrincessHades]

Thrash metal, beer, trying to decide whether or not my future is worth undertaking. It doesn't matter, I'm gonna do it and keep going anyways until I die from whatever health complications I've basically doomed myself to at this point, but damn. Being trans is fucking hell.

Nuclear Assault is good. Steel Reserve is good. Guitar is good. I have weed and edibles. I have a skateboard. I need to stop giving a shit about the things other people think about me, they fuckin suck.

 

[PrincessHades]

Aight I applied for a job. Gonna do more and then get some fucking money and stop being miserable. If they got a problem with me being a tranny they can go get fucked, idc anymore. I'm tired of being broke.

I've had like 5 jobs. I've been a manager before. Time to suck it up again and deal with the stupid fucking people because my life is objectively better when I have work.

 

[Cronopio]

What health problems are those? And why would they give a shit about your gender identity unless you put it front and center at every occasion?

 

[TechnicalBarbarity]

Are you two twats gonna be voting in Song Survivor thread?

 

[Cronopio]

Maybe.

 

[PrincessHades]

What health problems are those? And why would they give a shit about your gender identity unless you put it front and center at every occasion?

Most people are able to go through life without ever having to really mention or think about their gender. Everyone immediately just knows that they are what they are, they never even have to say. Trans people on the other hand often don't have this convenience, and that means that if we want to be acknowledged for who we really are, we have to explicitly tell people. I don't exactly pass for female, so when I go to a job interview, if I want to be referred to as a woman, I have to specifically ask. Generally, people are pretty nice about it, but they usually forget and slip up a lot. If I'm working in a customer facing job, I'll get called sir upwards of 10 times a day, and when I go home at night, that fucking hurts. I'm not mad at them. It's not their fault. It still just hurts. It feels like a denial and erasure of who I am. It's temporary of course, but it adds up over time.

I know there are definitely some people out there who like making everything about their gender. Most of us don't. We're the same as people who aren't trans, but we've been cursed with this misfortune, and in order to feel like ourselves, we sadly have to tell people that we're trans because otherwise, we'll just be treated as our birth sex. That sucks. I don't want anyone in real life to know. My goal is to be able to walk in a room and have nobody question that I was ever born anything other than female. I don't think it's unachievable, but in the meantime I'm in this limbo situation that's pretty scary and painful.

I was drunk when I wrote that post the other night, but generally the issues I face are the result of my not passing as female, not so much the malice of other people. Most people are at the very least cordial to me, even if they don't agree with my decisions. Some people are dicks about it though, and it's still pretty scary because I know that among a group of 100 people, there's probably at least a couple that are crazy.

tldr I don't want to make anything about me being trans. I'm a woman who was born as male. It hurts to be constantly referred to and treated as a guy, and if I want otherwise, I have to say something. Having to say something sucks, and it's where all the problems come in. The health issues I mentioned were unrelated to being trans. I've just put my body through a lot.

 

[PrincessHades]

@TechnicalBarbarity brother what did I do to you? Sorry if I said something to offend.

 

[TechnicalBarbarity]

Anyone else having trouble inserting images or using anything from that bar? It's all greyed out for me :/

 

[PrincessHades]

have u tried turning it off and back on again?

 

[TechnicalBarbarity]

Damn didn't even know there was an option to turn it in on/off. Thank you sir