Not-so-good-and-old "How do you feel" thread

[fireangel]

hyena: that´s just the way it has to be, the surprising endings Also just this kind of stuff makes you see things/happenings from a different point of view. How boring would it be if all goes always along the rules?

@fireangel: I need feel silly to make them up, and it has been weeks when I´ve felt that feeling. My creativity has suffered quite and I find it hard to even send a single post nowadays. Today I posted onto a finnish musician-forum about changing tuning of a bass to lower one, after I had postponed it almost a week, and when got to writing the post, I had to use from 1 to 3 hours to get it complete.

yes, I understand that a certain mood is required I hope, though, that this mood comes back one day. I know, too, when you do too many regular things then it can kill creativity. Ideas (in many cases, not always) need space and a free flow of thought, away from the normal ways.
I definitely hope your sillyness returns


NF: I don´t know. I want to throw away a lot of accumulated things (old papers, brochures, free CDs etc) but I fear I might need it one day, especially the university-stuff (I don´t mean my books and so on, just the "extra" material that appeared through random ways....) or I would have to re-search it all over again. I have not used it before, so what....
But renewing is so refreshing! Probably I do...

*hehe* today is inconsistency day...

 

[hyena]

@lina: hey, you flatter me, "good conversationalist" that i am.

(btw, she tried to trick me into signing a document about the supposed evil nature of don rumsfeld, but i was extremely steadfast).

i just finished doing a bit of household stuff, now i need to hang some clothes out to dry and then i can watch a movie that i've been interested in for a while. i'm listening to the new samael, thanks to master rahvin, and i really, really enjoy some tunes, especially "as the sun". it's refreshing not to listen to gay disco for a while.

as for how i'm feeling - kind of distant and unable. the poor moderator heard me whining on the topic for a good portion of the afternoon yesterday, but you all didn't, so there. i just cannot find a way to get in synch with most people. they feel stuff i can't feel and they say things i wouldn't dream of saying. i'm aloof most of the time.

 

[Child of Time]

I want to throw away a lot of accumulated things (old papers, brochures, free CDs etc) but I fear I might need it one day, especially the university-stuff (I don´t mean my books and so on, just the "extra" material that appeared through random ways....) or I would have to re-search it all over again. I have not used it before, so what....

Fun fun fun. I think it's difficult as hell to throw something away. If I had like a spare room, I would fill it with completely useless info stuff. You never know, it might become useful some day.

 

[fireangel]

Fun fun fun. I think it's difficult as hell to throw something away. If I had like a spare room, I would fill it with completely useless info stuff. You never know, it might become useful some day.

absolutely correct. Only that I don´t have a spare room. I noticed that I feel better in more empty rooms, where is only the things that I like. But I practically live in one room (large though), apart from that I use our families kitchen, garden and so on, so I have my workplace and living space combined. I already occupied a lot of closets in other people´s rooms, just for the metres of files and folders, or to change between winter and summer clothes. I can´t breathe anymore with all the stuff.

It´s like what I said above, I even can´t have creativity with a ton of crap around...

Same goes for things that I don´t need anymore, and would have to sell at the flea-market when_I_have_time (nothing for ebay, not collectors items, just the usual) , and on top of that, I didn´t pay for many things, I just kinda inherited them or are leftovers from other people´s households which may be useful one day...
I have to go now, I need to throw away something

 

[Child of Time]

fireangel: Sometimes I think that the best thing to do is to burn your house down and build a new one on the ashes of the old. Repeat next time you have filled it with crap. It might cost a lot to build a new house, but probably it's worth it.

 

[Hiljainen]

i just went close to an heart attack hearing a certain voice on the phone, that then turned out to belong to a guy from uni i don't even know (the voice, not the phone ) and not to who i was afraid of.


next step: i'll start to hear voices from nothing (not only to mistake people, cars or people's voices for a certain person and hide under the bed/behind the unlucky friend that is with me in that moment).

 

[fireangel]

CoT: not correct. The house is fantastic. It should just be more empty.

I accomplished my mission for today, though. I threw away a couple of (my own!, not other people´s!) the hated, randomly accumulated, single-pieced, inherited porcelain. Actually I just let the whole box fall down and claimed it was an accident So that left me without any discussion, and since it was in a cardboard box, no mess either.
=)

 

[t.a.j.]

I'm in love,
butterflies eat my fingertips
and I am smiling madly
while the mornings are still grey
but the ginko tree outside my window
is like a lemon, and bright sunshine
My love is far away
but my love for her is here.

 

[TheFourthHorseman]

The hell? Those lyrics aren't anything like the ones in Trumpets Of Jerico. Actually they're pretty hilarious.

Or maybe it was a poem, seeing as this isn't the NP thread. Oops.

For the sake of some meaning, I'm feeling a little better (than bad).

 

[t.a.j.]

On second thought, maybe that was silly

 

[TheFourthHorseman]

Only Maiden could write a song with that kinda story. Kick ass leads in it too.

 

[t.a.j.]

I fully agree on both accounts.
Piece of Trivia: There is a short novella by the same name, wether there is any connection I cannot tell, but I suppose there is.

 

[Lost To Apathy]

NF: argh, still tired from moving. but my new apartment is great. :Spin: and I live in a new city!! thank GOD. Oh, and did I mention 10mbit?

 

[Child of Time]

Where do you live now? (I've 10mbit too, btw )

 

[MagSec4]

I feel very overwhelmed with things to do, yet cannot find the desire or strength to start getting to them just yet.

 

[hyena]

nf: not really in top form. my father's health has deteriorated considerably, his tumor having migrated to a lung. this is the year where every single awful thing happens apparently.

 

[rahvin]

@hyena: i feel for your dad and you. i'm not in top form either, i'm just sitting here trying to somehow hug myself and the whole world.

 

[fireangel]

nf: not really in top form. my father's health has deteriorated considerably, his tumor having migrated to a lung. this is the year where every single awful thing happens apparently.

 

[|ngenius]

Where do you live now? (I've 10mbit too, btw )

Oh, my!! I got a simple shitty 512 K/s, albeit I manage to control three of these basic inet connections and I do fine. Hope next year I will be able to get to Sweden (finally, because last year I had problems and didn't make it), a friend of mine is quite interested on living over there, I can go and try myself.

@hyena's dad: Hey, man, I'm so sorry. Hopefully, Rahvin's hugs will embrace us all.


|ng.

 

[MagSec4]

I went to bed at 9pm to supposedly take a nap, and now I'm up at 3am with a new fucked up sleeping pattern
At least I'll have many hours of quiet in which I could maybe get some work done..

hyena: I'm sorry to hear that. I know all about going through a parent's suffering due to cancer. I extend my sympathies.