nf: unseeing.
hyena had nice guy over for dinner. hyena is cooler than dr. lecter -> treated nice guy to very nice dinner, only i don't have chateau d'yquem because i'm too cheap (generic sauternes is a substitute where ice-cream wine is concerned, although i know where i'm at fault). at some point nice guy, impressed by brilliant layout of the table and brilliant food/drink, even said "i feel a bit uneasy to be treated so well". hyena, ever the high point of cool remarks, replied "well, something must have gone wrong. the point was to make you feel content, not uneasy. some people are weird." laughter ensues.
hyena sort of thinks that nice guy wants to be friends (oh the newness of it!) but can't see the thing going farther at the moment. or ever, probably. hyena is enduring inner fight of the "should i stay or should i go" variety. hyena thinks that it's not fair to spend time on impressive dinners for guys that don't fall for her, especially when other guys fall for heather love exactly because of her dinners, but that's besides the point. but also, hyena mistrusts people who are forthcoming on a fourth date, because the sparks most of the times go away. hyena is in front of a wall: should she start banging her head?
i'm also leaving for a week tomorrow. will help me to clear my head.
