zabu of nΩd
Free Insultation
- Feb 9, 2007
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Sitting here debating whether I should go to this philosophy club party that's going on at a professor's house in my area in about an hour. It's a good crowd, and I feel like I should keep up appearances with them, especially since I'm not taking any more philosophy classes.
On the other hand, I've never really hung out with any of them outside of classes or events in the 2+ years I've known the group, and I kind of feel like going to the party would be pretty pointless if my only aim is to keep open relationships that don't really have any substance in the first place.

It makes me sad that I'm not a bigger part of the philosophy crowd here. But there just doesn't seem to be the right chemistry between me and them, or the right circumstances to keep our paths from crossing. And I don't really want to go there and expend all this mental/emotional energy just to experience relationships that will disappear as soon as I leave. I'm probably just going to skip out of the party tonight.
edit: Actually, fuck it. I've got nothing better to do tonight, and this is probably the only time this whole semester that I'll see them.
On the other hand, I've never really hung out with any of them outside of classes or events in the 2+ years I've known the group, and I kind of feel like going to the party would be pretty pointless if my only aim is to keep open relationships that don't really have any substance in the first place.

It makes me sad that I'm not a bigger part of the philosophy crowd here. But there just doesn't seem to be the right chemistry between me and them, or the right circumstances to keep our paths from crossing. And I don't really want to go there and expend all this mental/emotional energy just to experience relationships that will disappear as soon as I leave. I'm probably just going to skip out of the party tonight.
edit: Actually, fuck it. I've got nothing better to do tonight, and this is probably the only time this whole semester that I'll see them.