Well, now I'm properly drunk and my drinking buddy is making out with her boyfriend...not going clubbing but we're gonna hit up a bar so it's all good. I just don't want to think right now. I think she thought she cared but if she really did then when her ex said "it's him or me" she wouldn't have put up with that shit, she would have pointed out that that's fucking bullshit. She's gonna wind up with him in the end but whatever...her life is a mess and I really wanted to be with her and be there for her and help her but it's increasingly clear that she's not the person I thought she was. I can't go back to being friends with her, which sucks because when we were friends we talked pretty much every day and she's the only person I had that frequent contact with so it's like a piece of my life is missing but I guess that's what I get for caring. I can't wait till August when school starts for real and I can find some girls my age without serious emotional problems. Or even with serious emotional problems that don't involve leading me on, sleeping with me, telling me she wants me, starting a relationship, and then fucking hurting me like this. Have I ever told you guys how awesome alcohol is? I don't even give a fuck right now. Except my friend is definitely fucking right now and I'm a tad jealous, but whatever. Her BF puts her through a ton of shit so she totally deserves it. I need to go to the bathroom but I think that's where they are.
