Not-so-good-and-old "How do you feel" thread

[TheNewBuild]

NF: Happy, but tired and fed up with all the work that has to be done for school. I'm happy cos I found out that Nile and Incantation will play in my town in September and DEICIDE in October Ah, well... back to the books

 

[Taliesin]

On the other hand, I have mixed feelings about the whole concept of 'experience' applied to relationships [...] I've learnt something about human behavior from my relationships, but I sort of think that it is just because you are observing how someone else is with extra attention. It's not related to the fact that you are in a relationship per se. The same facts I could have understood by looking at friends, relatives, acquaintances - I was just paying closer attention to x because x was my boyfriend.

With every relationship that fails, you have a story that tells you how it wont work. And there are always reasons for the failure.. in theory, that should be all the info one needs to avoid the same mistake to ruin a relation... and there can only be so many mistakes, right? Yeah well Im an Engineer.. oh whatever

 

[marduk1507]

@NL: Hey, thanks for that! Yeah, you are right, I completely forgot that sweden is a socialist state - coming from slovakia I simply cannot put a = between socialism and functioning state, so I was talking about starting a business as a normal thing. But yeah, socialists dont really like you standing on your own feet, do they? Our experiment lasted 41 years, so I hope weve had enough of socialism. Our tax is an equal one - 19%, its something EU is fucking mad about, cause all the companies are moving their businesses to our country, but fuck them, I hope our government will stand firm on this point, cause there have been attempts to unify euro tax policy (I think I dont have to talk about the reasons here, do I?). After almost 16 years after velvet revolution we arent so badly off. Slovakia is corruption ridden, but all the things people need to live a normal life seem to work well. Well, maybe we are too to the right now, as for the unemployment policy, its really too strict. Who knows whatll happen after the french and dutch referendums. I hope those EU mfs will understand that EU should only be about free trade and movement and not about a huge pile of directives and provisions.

 

[Wolfman Von Jones]

Like Im starting to miss everyone here, even the people I dont miss.

Nick

 

[Schwedentod]

Sleeped too long and have to learn now. Didn't get enough learning done last weekend so now there's time for it, no uni today.

But first, I think I'll get some breakfast. Normally I don't eat anything in the morning, but there's a feeling like it could help me now.

 

[DragonLady1]

mahlzeit
hm still dead tired and dont wanna work, bah this week just sucks...

 

[Schwedentod]

Don't wanna work?!? I think I know this feeling. Have to write my last test in business administration, subject "Management", and it just sucks. It's a subject where you just have to talk, talk, talk. So, learning looks like reading, reading, reading.
If you have a database and something doesn't work, you know there's a mistake and can work on it. If you have management you have nothing, only ideas.

 

[King Chaos]

*Scratches behind wolfie's ears*

NL: That's like some majorly fucked up nightmare where things are just completely out of your control. I had no idea it was so bad. Maybe I have this shit to look forward to, I dunno.

NF: like after these exams i'll just get a backpack and disappear.

Ditto (put a stamp on that).

Nf: Just woke up a few hours earlier than what's normal for me these days. First half an hour after waking up I'm always all screwed up. I dream what feels like constantly now, and it's about stuff I really dont want to be dreaming about. Confrontations and such, I usually act like a warrior though lol, so there's nothing to be ashamed of in that department. Just rattles me it does. 5 nights in a row now I've had these majorly bad dreams. While awake Im feeling quite great though A couple of things have cheered me up recently... I'm just waiting for a couple of things to cut me down, and they are inevitable... still they are things that I'm trying to force myself to accept painlessly hence forth. It isn't as easy as I'd like.

P.S I still owe some PM's... I havn't forgotten, I just need to find the time and the words. sorry and thanks .

Edit:
P.P.S If I get Emo (as they say) around here its because all my friends are off festing it up at download and I don't have anyone to speak to. I'll try not to sicken anyone at least.

 

[DragonLady1]

really wish u lot of strenght to get through it, I know its not easy but at the end u will be relieved... and I know about the dreams, they just show these little hopes and wishes still left when u try to forget someone u loved... I had these too but I know they cant be real

 

[King Chaos]

Thanks DL... And you're right about the dreams. It makes me feel like I want her back Ha, but if I had her back I have no doubt I'd be miserable. Maybe one more night... gah, shouldn't think like that, or should I? But I know the night I dont dream about it, the day after will be really great.

 

[Schwedentod]

Had dreams, too... This broke me at that time, because they were so real and some were good, some evil. Didn't know which ones were worse... Funny thing is: normally I don't dream. But however, they won't return after some time, I'm still wondering that this time seems to last with you, KC...

 

[Schwedentod]

No, one more night would throw you abck some weeks, I'm sure! Personally, didn't feel the need to sleep with Andrea any more after we split up.

 

[DragonLady1]

I think the nice dreams were worse for me, as I woke and saw it wasnt real at all... they still come back sometimes but I started to deal with it so its oke, I realised it cant be so I accepted that I cant change things now and try to look forward, it takes a lot of energy tho

 

[King Chaos]

@Schwedentod: I don't normally dream either... I used to, but I stopped remembering like 4 years ago (still have a couple now or then on weird days). It's taking a long time simply because we split but agreed to be friends, then she acted like a total cunt, then she started fucking my worst enemy (I really can't stand anything about this guy). There's alot of backstory, and surely enough it begins with us being seven year old kids, best of friends. GAH!!!

@DL: Nice dreams are the worse. She comes back and apologisez, and she's just like I always knew her (not like she is now, all spiteful and lifeless). But what's worse is when you have a really bad dream (turned out she had been getting it on with my brothers friend since she dumped me) to find out the reality is even more unacceptable. GAH!!!
what the hell.

 

[Schwedentod]

There's one nice one, Andrea and me on a big field of grass and flowers. We run to each other and she falls in my arms. Then I woke up. The first thought was: "What a beautiful dream, hope to see her soon." The next one: "Oh, shit, it's over. There was this one reason..." (wasn't able to forget her that time because it was some days after we split up)

In another dream, I saw her with this guy, so... Which one was worse... Don't know, both were quite shit.

No dreams these days...

 

[DragonLady1]

hm yes, I had those bad dreams too, when I was in switzerland end of april I felt like I didnt sleep for a night cause I always woke up in tears from those bad dreams, I still dunno how I could let it touch me so much but well, u cant chose where u feelings go.... but its oke now, I realised that it couldnt be and as said it took (and still takes) some energy but I can get over it

 

[Human Desert]

NF: Great Going to take the dogs out soon, and then go to the mall when my boyfriend picks me up.

 

[King Chaos]

NF: Great Going to take the dogs out soon, and then go to the mall when my boyfriend picks me up.

I wish I had dogs, so when I'm wandering around it's not entirely aimless.

NF: Like going for an aimless wander. The sun is so hot and I'm wearing a vest my scrawniness has diminished somewhat and I really need to get rid of this farmers tan. Yesterday I got complimented on my newly pumped figure, although to be honest I haven't noticed any change, and any change is quite clearly minimal. A walk in the park followed by some reading is definately on the cards.

 

[Taliesin]

I just cleaned the mirrors in my room, along with the windows.. I vaccum cleaned my room and washed some laundry... damn I wish I knew where those activity-spikes come from so I could recreate them whenever I need
Now I just need to buy some stuff and then: Cappucino and some gaming.. sounds like a good day.

I had a dream about a treehouse last night and I couldnt get the idea of building one out of my head.. I was thinking about how it would have to look like, how Id fasten it in the tree and all that for about 2 hours.. lol

 

[Siren]

There's a dream thread somewhere, you people..

NF: quite ok, but i'm dreading friday.