Drinking coffee, my new tutor is moving to Boston and I see her next week and that's it. She's cool,beautiful, and sexy. I do think about her, but am not in love with her. At the sametime it still really sucks. I'm trying to make progress and do the right thing in life and have something good going. And it's over. I somehow have a hard time moving forward and it's going to bother me. I just don't understand why life just always seems to kick my ass and can be cruel. I'm just trying to do the education thing and better myself, but I wonder if it really matters. Life just never ends. I'm not expiriencing anything or finding anything in life. I just don't know what to do anymore. I've been sick and tired for so long. I just don't know how to shake it.