ITP I continue to overanalyze things.
Back from my "date." I'm still not sure what it was. The fact that it was the same excursion which I initially pitched to her as a date indicates that yes it was...but I'm really not sure. She paid for her own ticket; afterwards, we got food and I paid the bill, but I'm not sure she liked that. She's really hard to read. I don't think she particularly liked the movie, and I didn't either (The Men Who Stare At Goats - pretty meh, with really funny bits). She wore makeup, which she doesn't usually, but that might just have been because she was going out...When I first asked her out I was pretty sure beforehand that doing so was unlikely to make my life better but I didn't fucking plan on this. I was prepared for "yes," "no," and "MACE," but not "yes, no, maybe so," which is quite literally what I've gotten.
For some reason my boss is acting as a middleman in this whole thing (yes, it's weird, and yes, I feel like I'm in high school again). I'm hoping things will become clearer on Tuesday (when she works again).
But aside from all that, I've got band practice tomorrow, a new drum program to tinker with, and a stack of cool new power metal albums on my desk to listen to, so the rest of my weekend should be ace.
Well...good luck? Lulzor. Hopefully it turns out well, but she's played with you this long, it's likely you'll get smacked in the face again (AiC reference).ITP I continue to overanalyze things.
Back from my "date." I'm still not sure what it was. The fact that it was the same excursion which I initially pitched to her as a date indicates that yes it was...but I'm really not sure. She paid for her own ticket; afterwards, we got food and I paid the bill, but I'm not sure she liked that. She's really hard to read. I don't think she particularly liked the movie, and I didn't either (The Men Who Stare At Goats - pretty meh, with really funny bits). She wore makeup, which she doesn't usually, but that might just have been because she was going out...When I first asked her out I was pretty sure beforehand that doing so was unlikely to make my life better but I didn't fucking plan on this. I was prepared for "yes," "no," and "MACE," but not "yes, no, maybe so," which is quite literally what I've gotten.
For some reason my boss is acting as a middleman in this whole thing (yes, it's weird, and yes, I feel like I'm in high school again). I'm hoping things will become clearer on Tuesday (when she works again).
But aside from all that, I've got band practice tomorrow, a new drum program to tinker with, and a stack of cool new power metal albums on my desk to listen to, so the rest of my weekend should be ace.
Also, for those of you who think I'm over the top or immature or whatever: When I post something overtly angry or violent, or when I make a reference to H or something else along those lines, I am not typically being serious. I'm a very odd person irl, and my thought process is not what most are used to. My violent statements are just a humorous way to let off steam. I am completely clean and sober (except for the rare coke thing) because I would like to live past 25 and I want to be a good dad. I actually do love my girlfriend with all of my being, and I love my son a little more. Yes, I am extremely depressed and pessimistic most of the time, but this is how I function. I'm actually very satisfied on a large scale about my life. I have a place to live, a beautiful woman who has kept me off the streets, and a child who is worth everything and then some to me. I don't post many thought out, extremely intelligent posts because I am not here for that. I am here because it consumes time, I love metal, and generally you're all mildly amusing and okay people. Etc, etc, ad nauseum...you get it. Maybe some of you will meet me in person one day, in which case you'd have a better understanding. Or read my lyrics. That helps those who are bright enough to understand what I'm saying.
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A still more glorious dawn awaits
Not a sunrise, but a galaxy rise
A morning filled with 400 billion suns
The rising of the milky way